Chapter 31: Inner Knowledge Versus External Knowledge and the Emotional Implications Involved

Within the dynamics of feminine and masculine energy, we now enter Part Eleven of the book. In my view, this is a particularly fascinating part, intellectually, creatively, and spiritually alike. It is a section that asks us to slow down, to observe, and to agree to dwell inside a deep question that has accompanied humanity for many generations.

Part Eleven deals with intuition versus rational logic, with the tension between accumulated knowledge and processes of expansion and growth. This is a struggle that does not occur only within the private consciousness of each individual, but also on the broad cultural level. One might say that this is a long, almost evolutionary process, in which the balance between different forms of knowledge, different ways of knowing, and different definitions of what is considered valid knowledge is constantly shifting.

In a crude and simplified way, one can say that the knowledge associated with what is often called the left brain is based primarily on accumulated experience, on the past, on what has already been learned, tested, and approved. This is knowledge that relies on agreements, on consensus, and on clear rules of proof. Some people are more skilled in using it, others less so, but it is knowledge that can be taught, transmitted, and reproduced.

In contrast, the knowledge associated with what is often called the right brain, intuitive knowledge, operates in a completely different manner. It does not rely on the past, but rather turns toward the future. It is knowledge for which there is no proof in the conventional sense, because it brings hints, sensations, and prior knowing about things that have not yet occurred. It cannot be proven in advance, and sometimes not even retrospectively, at least not using ordinary tools.

This is knowledge that arises from inner senses, from subtle antennas, from delicate internal radars that receive information in non-linear and non-rational ways. And this is precisely where the tension begins. Our culture still grants clear preference to knowledge that can be measured, tested, and proven. Intuitive knowledge receives less legitimacy, less credit, and at times is even dismissed entirely.

Those who work with intuition, as I do, know how difficult this situation can be. One may ask me how I know something, and I might answer that I have seen thousands of times that it works. And even then, a question mark always remains. I have no absolute proof. This is an inseparable part of the drama of intuition, but also of its beauty.

The goal here is not to prove that intuition is wiser than logic, nor the opposite. The goal is to create a pendulum, to create movement, to create cooperation. Precisely because intuition has been given less space, it is now important to cultivate it. Not in order to weaken rational thinking, but in order to nourish it. When one side is neglected, the other side is harmed as well.

In this chapter I suggest an additional distinction, deliberately coarse, for the sake of observation and inquiry: intuition and rational logic as inner knowledge versus external knowledge. Inner knowledge is knowledge that comes from within me. I did not learn it from a book, and I did not receive a certificate for it. Perhaps I received inspiration, encouragement, or guidance, but the knowing itself arises from inside.

This is where the debates begin. How do you know? Who told you? Where is the proof? These questions emerge from an orientation toward external knowledge. Knowledge that resides in books, databases, academia, and lectures. Knowledge based on agreements, clear rules, and measurable methods that can be reproduced.

Modern science is built upon this external knowledge, and rightly so. It investigates external reality, measures, compares, and verifies. Yet it has great difficulty investigating inner truth, because it lacks tools to measure it. And so, naturally, a cultural orientation develops in which only what can be measured is considered to truly exist.

Alongside this, there exists an immense abundance of inner knowledge. Gut feelings, insights, imagination, inner attraction, passion. A rich, living, dynamic knowledge that sometimes seems to come from nowhere. One can train oneself to receive it, but this requires trust, a willingness to play, healthy naïveté, and openness.

Emotions also belong to this inner knowledge. And here, painful conflicts often arise. A person feels something, and another attempts to convince them that they do not really feel that way. That the emotion is not justified, not logical. This is a classic confrontation between feminine and masculine energy. Inside versus outside. Feeling versus analysis.

When inner knowledge is delegitimized, emotions are delegitimized as well. Intuition is something that is felt. True, it is not rational logic. It is a different kind of logic. And this is our work. To place both forms of knowledge in a space of cooperation. Not fear, not competition, and not mutual dismissal.

Intuition has no value without rational thinking that can bring it into a structure of action. And rational thinking has no life without intuition to nourish it with vision, creativity, and passion. They need one another. And this is why we are here. To recognize both, cultivate both, and allow them to meet.

Practice Questions: Write your answers by hand or share them in a practice group.

1. At what stage in your life did you realize that you wanted to rely more on inner knowledge?

2. What difficulties did you encounter when you relied too heavily on external information?

3. Do you currently find ways to bring inner and external knowledge together in your life?

4. What is the most innovative piece of inner knowledge you have encountered recently?

5. Do you connect with the concept of an “inner library,” and with the idea that you can continue improving your ability to draw more knowledge and tools from it?

Chapter 32: Intuition Has Laws and Order, Even If It Appears Completely Chaotic

Chapter Thirty-Two is the second chapter in Part Eleven, which deals with the dynamics between intuition and rational logic. In fact, the title of the entire section tells the central story we are addressing here: do feminine energy and masculine energy operate in conflict with one another, or do they succeed in entering a state of mutual fertilization from which expansion and growth are born?

As I have said many times throughout the book, there is no middle ground here. There is no neutral state. There are essentially only two possibilities. Either there is mutual fertilization between the energies, or there is struggle. And in that struggle, even when one side appears dominant, both sides ultimately weaken. Even the energy that seems strong is harmed by the absence of fertilization, because it operates without balance and without completion.

Today we can see this clearly in many areas. Masculine energy, which in our culture is sometimes perceived as dominant and controlling, is in fact growing weaker. Not because it is inherently weak, but because it operates without cooperation with feminine energy. There is no such thing as a weak energy or a stronger energy. Both energies are strong and equally essential. But when there is no cooperation between them, both are harmed, each in its own way.

The process we are engaged in throughout this book is intended to allow that cooperation to take place. It is not a simple process. At times it is deeply challenging. But it is possible, because it touches the most fundamental layer of our existence. It is already there within us, even if we have forgotten it.

Chapter Thirty-Two pauses at a fundamental point: intuition has laws and order, even if to rational logic it appears completely chaotic. The question is always: chaotic in whose eyes? In the eyes of masculine energy.

For masculine energy, anything that lacks clear control, anything that lacks an order that can be understood and worked with in a linear way, is perceived as confusion, dispersion, something fragmented and illogical. When there is no familiar logical structure, masculine energy experiences loss of control, confusion, and often mistrust. From its perspective, what lacks such order may not exist at all.

In contrast, for feminine energy, the same space that appears chaotic to masculine energy is a familiar home. It is a fertile, creative, knowledge-rich space. A space where improvisation, change, and the discovery of new connections are possible, connections that cannot be discovered when everything is rigidly structured.

And yet, intuition does have laws and order. It has an inner logic. It has aims, directions, and ways of operating. There are things that support it and things that obstruct it. But it operates in domains that rational logic struggles to reach. It touches information that lies several steps ahead, information that for rational logic does not yet exist.

From the perspective of rational logic, what has not yet happened does not exist. There is no inner knowledge, no foreknowledge, no sense of the future. All of this is considered nothing. But from the perspective of intuition, this is precisely its field of operation. And here the problem begins, when we restrict ourselves to only one form of knowing.

When we do this, we give up vast portions of our human resources. This can be seen clearly, for example, in the crisis of modern medicine. Medicine has gone very far in attempting to purify itself of anything that does not meet the criteria of rational logic. To the point of disconnecting from the senses, from personal contact with the patient, from gut feelings and emotion.

In the past, the physician also relied on deep familiarity with the person in front of them, on listening, on inner sensing. Today, in many cases, they are asked to neutralize all of this. They are told it is unprofessional. That they must align with the system, the computer, the books, and the protocols. Anything that does not fit this framework is considered irrelevant.

This is a clear example of what happens when intuition is abandoned. When it is reduced to coincidence, momentary inspiration, or unserious chaos. And then, around it, other methods flourish, alternative healing technologies, and people are drawn to them because they succeed in touching places that purely rational medicine cannot reach.

When we dive inward and allow feminine energy to strengthen, when we learn to trust intuition, something interesting happens. We begin to experience that it has order. That it has laws. Intuition is knowing. A knowing experience. And it is not chaotic. It is different. It has no proof in the rational sense, and often requires spiritual training to rely on it, but it is knowing.

This is how I define intuition: I know something because I know it, even if I cannot explain to others how I know. That is intuition. And it can be a working tool, a research tool, and a companion in every area of life.

Intuition has its own knowledge reservoirs. Its own inner encyclopedias, which do not operate like rational databases. It works through emotional authenticity, inner integrity, and spiritual growth. It is connected to love, creativity, and the capacity to expand.

Rational logic, by contrast, is not necessarily connected to love or creativity. It can be, but not always. Sometimes, in order to deepen rational knowledge, we are required to temporarily disconnect from feeling and intuition. This is a form of knowledge based on imbalance, on the fortification of masculine energy that says: here there is room only for me, and only for my rules.

This is precisely how medicine operates in many places. Anything that does not meet rational criteria is considered nonexistent. Nonsense. Mumbo jumbo. If you cannot prove it, it does not exist. And thus we discard immense sources of knowledge, limit ourselves, and gradually even become robotic.

And so I return and say: intuition is a field of knowledge. It has laws, methods, and techniques. There are ways to strengthen access to it, and ways to distance oneself from it. One can even formulate lists of rules and principles, even if to rational logic this appears chaotic.

Chaotic in whose eyes? In the eyes of the rational mind, for whom anything that does not operate by its rules is nonexistent and even dangerous.

And what is our role? Not to prove to rational logic that it is wrong. But to strengthen feminine energy. To strengthen feminine knowledge. To bring it confidently before masculine energy and say: we are here together. Not to win, but to expand. I bring what appears chaotic to you, and you bring your tools. Together, we can work as a team.

And thus, each of us can expand, and contribute to the human being who seeks, perhaps more than anything else, to connect the two sides within themselves.

Practice Questions: Write your answers by hand or share them in a practice group.

1. What “rules” do you recognize regarding connecting to your intuition?

2. What things strongly interfere with your ability to listen to your intuition?

3. What things strongly support your ability to listen to your intuition?

4. What significant decision have you made recently primarily based on intuitive guidance?

5. Looking back, can you construct a kind of inner logic to the sequence of your intuitive decisions over the years? Do you see connections between them?

Chapter 33: The Path to Integrating the External Library and the Inner Library for the Benefit of Humanity

Chapter Thirty-Three concludes Part Eleven, which deals with the tension, and at times even the struggle, between intuition and rational logic, between accumulated knowledge and movements of expansion, growth, and renewal. This is a forward-looking chapter. A chapter of vision. An attempt to look not only at what has been until now, but at what may open before us when we learn to work differently with our sources of knowledge, both external and internal.

When we use the concept of a “library,” a very familiar experience usually arises. A place containing an abundance of books, knowledge, thought, inquiry, and accumulated human experience. A library represents humanity’s immense investment in learning, documentation, conceptualization, and preservation of knowledge. Over many generations, people wrote, researched, formulated, transmitted, preserved, deepened, and left behind traces of thought within the external library.

The external library, whether physical or digital, is tangible. We see the books, the pages, the titles, the shelves, the organized information. Even when the text is digital, it still has form, boundaries, and structure. This is a library created through effort, process, time, and implementation. It is the result of inner movement that went outward.

Here it is important to pause and remember a fundamental fact. Every external library began as an inner library. Every idea, insight, discovery, and theory was first born in an inner, intuitive, creative, emotional, unstructured space. Feminine energy always precedes masculine energy. First there is an idea, a sensation, an image, a question, an experience. Only afterward comes the stage of processing, formulation, organization, and externalization.

Yet during cultural development, a complex process occurred. The external library, which was born from the inner library, gradually accumulated status, authority, power, and legitimacy, to the point that in many places it became detached from the source that nourishes it. Gradually, a situation emerged in which rational, provable, measurable knowledge became almost exclusive, while inner, intuitive, experiential knowledge was pushed to the margins and sometimes even dismissed.

This is one of the roots of the cultural crisis in which we now find ourselves. Something that was created from within, grew, developed, strengthened, and acquired tools and results, but in the process forgot its sources of nourishment. Attention shifted from inner treasures to external resources. From open questions to closed answers. From movement to structure.

When the external library becomes the sole source of knowledge, a hierarchy also forms. There are those who function better within external knowledge structures, and those who do not. There are those considered “smart,” and those labeled “less intelligent.” The external library is not equally accessible to everyone, not because the knowledge does not exist within them, but because access is measured using only certain tools.

In contrast, the inner library exists in every person. It is abundant, rich, filled with information, experiences, memories, images, connections, and deep knowing. But we have learned not to see it. Not to trust it. Not to know how to enter it. In a sense, one could say that the inner library is truth, not as absolute truth, but as a living, original, renewing space that contains an inner logic far deeper and broader than we usually imagine.

When we begin to strengthen feminine energy again, and are not afraid to turn inward, a different process becomes possible. We can imagine intuition as a messenger, a representative of the inner library. It retrieves fragments of information, insights, and ideas for us, according to our readiness, timing, and need. Sometimes this precedes its time. Sometimes it appears unclear. But gradually, as the insight clarifies and is received, it also joins the external library.

Thus a bridge is created. Inner knowledge moves outward, and external knowledge returns inward. Our role in this era is not to wait randomly for inspiration, but to learn how to consciously enter the inner library, to ask questions, to wander, to search, and to allow new information to reveal itself.

It is important to say that the inner library is not purely feminine energy. It also contains structure, codes, and inner order. Masculine energy also operates there, but it serves the feminine movement rather than controlling it. There is hardly any space in which only one energy exists. There is always combination, always dynamic balance.

When we improve our access to the inner library, allow ourselves to get a little lost, ask new questions, and open ourselves to information that is not yet familiar, we create a new connection between past, present, and future. The external library holds the knowledge of the past and present. Intuition carries knowledge seeking to expand into the future. Their integration allows for a more complete movement.

If so, the task is to release the exclusivity of the external library as the sole source of knowledge, without negating its value. It is an important display of processed knowledge, but it is not the sum total of knowledge. Many other parts reside in the spaces of the inner library, and we will not reach them through effortful thinking alone, but through presence, openness, curiosity, and living questions.

One can imagine a state in which we not only receive information from intuition, but also learn to move together with it inward, toward its source. This is a path still forming. It is not fully clear. But the very act of walking it, the willingness to connect the libraries, opens a doorway to deep development of the human being and of humanity as a whole.

Practice Questions: Write your answers by hand or share them in a practice group.

1. How do you feel about the concept of an inner library?

2. What is special, in your view, about libraries?

3. Can you give an example of a situation in which your inner library provided you with organized and important information that could not have come from outside?

4. Can you give an example of a situation in which not listening to your inner library created difficulty in working with external knowledge?

5. In which area of your life would you like greater cooperation between these two libraries?

Chapter 34: The Real Wedding: Opening the Eyes, Releasing Illusion, and Learning to Cooperate

In the dynamics of feminine and masculine energy, we now enter Part Twelve of the book, which includes Chapters Thirty-Four through Thirty-Six. The title of this part asks a question that seems simple at first glance, yet is in fact very deep: Why do we truly get excited about weddings?

Why does a wedding event touch us so deeply in the heart. Why does the very decision to connect, on a symbolic, ritualistic, declarative, and sometimes also religious level, evoke in us excitement, tears, joy, and a sense of meaning. Whether it is a man and a woman, a woman and a woman, or a man and a man, there is always some form of connection between feminine energy and masculine energy. And it is not by chance that this connection moves us.

Even if the institution of marriage itself has gone through many upheavals, and even if in practice things do not always work as we might wish, the ritual itself, the wedding itself, continues to awaken something deep within us. It reminds us of longing. It touches an inner memory. It connects us to an ancient aspiration to be whole. This is not kitsch and not a cliché. There is something very real that is activated within us when we are moved by a wedding.

Is what we feel necessarily related to what actually happens in that specific wedding. Most often, it is not. In many cases, the everyday reality of the relationship cannot bear the weight of the symbolic promise. And yet, it is no coincidence that so many cultures have given, and continue to give, great importance to wedding rituals. To some extent, a wedding symbolizes meeting cultural and communal expectations, marking what is considered right and appropriate. But beyond that, the wedding is a symbol. And this symbol has a deep reason for celebration, joy, and human gathering around it.

From here this chapter is born, seeking to speak about the real wedding. A wedding that is not merely an external ritual, but an inner process. A wedding that invites us to open our eyes, to release illusions, and to begin cooperating truly.

Many weddings in their social sense contain a strong element of illusion, of presentation, of performance. At times enormous resources are invested in music, clothing, food, design, and atmosphere, until the essence is lost. The essence is not the show, but the emotional and spiritual connection, which is complex, challenging, and requires work. A connection that carries responsibility, depth, and meaning, and sometimes even a fateful dimension.

The real wedding, then, takes place first and foremost within us. And the more it becomes established inside, the more it can also manifest in an appropriate external connection. Not necessarily through a formal wedding, but through a living connection that contains interaction, energy movement, and a pendulum motion between two poles. A connection in which one plus one does not equal only two, but creates a new third space, a shared field that fertilizes and empowers both sides.

For such an inner wedding to occur, we must release illusions. The illusion of dominance of masculine energy in certain places. The illusion of dominance of feminine energy in other places. And perhaps most of all, the illusion of separation. The illusion that we can develop, heal ourselves, and fulfill our lives without inner cooperation between the two energies.

Here we encounter the dilemma and the difficulty, but also the beauty, creativity, and growth embedded in this division into two energies. The work begins from within. To recognize that within me there exists an ongoing process of connection between masculine energy and feminine energy. To create between them a kind of inner wedding, an ongoing cooperation between intuition and intellect, between emotion and rational thought, between fantasy and practicality.

As long as there is no movement, as long as there is no awareness that I temporarily reside on one side in order to move to the other and return, I am still not within the real wedding. The wedding is not an endpoint, but a dynamic state. It is the very dynamic between feminine energy and masculine energy.

One of the central illusions that is worth shedding along the way is the belief that balance between the two energies is a quiet and calm state. Many aspire to a place of absolute serenity, of peace of mind, where there are no problems, no tensions, no conflicts, and no obligations. This is an illusion. Quiet is a temporary state, primarily characteristic of feminine energy. It is legitimate, important, and necessary, but it is only one side of the pendulum.

It is a place of pause, listening, and replenishment. A place where things settle, stabilize, and gain weight. But from it a movement is meant to grow back toward the other side, the active, noisy, creative, and sometimes challenging side. This is the heart of the real wedding.

The real wedding is a skill. It is a high human art. To know how to be in constant movement. To know how to cultivate each energy separately, and to know how to move between them. Perhaps here also lies the secret of healthy partnership and healthy relationship. To know when to decide and when to listen. When to lead and when to allow leadership. Dominance that shifts according to need, time, and context.

If a wedding evokes in us an association of the end of a journey, of arriving home, or of the end of loneliness, then we still have not understood what a wedding truly is. A wedding is the agreement to enter the pendulum movement. To learn to live within it. To identify where I am stuck, and to learn to release. To understand that I must cultivate both energies so that they are mature enough for real cooperation.

At this place, cooperation is born from choice, not from obligation. A cooperation that is beneficial, nourishing, and life-giving. Energy wants to move, and when it gets stuck, this may manifest also in pain and illness. The fears that arise around exposure, loss of self, fusion, or control, are signs that the inner wedding is not yet sufficiently established.

A wedding is not something that is forced, nor something that is performed artificially. It is the result of maturation. Of recognizing that there are two central forces, that each must be cultivated, and that one must learn to move between them. When this happens, over time it becomes more natural. It becomes the healthy nature.

At times we deviate from the path. Crises are an inseparable part of the process. A crisis within the wedding is not a failure, but a sign that something is asking for repair. Perhaps one of the energies is not sufficiently nurtured, or perhaps the cooperation between them needs updating. Crises exist also for this purpose, to show us where additional work is needed.

This is the real wedding. There is no need for glittering clothes or a grand ceremony. What is required is a courageous heart, willing to do the work. The work of cultivating both energies, each in its place, with the knowledge that every person carries both within. This is a journey that is not simple, but it tells the deep human drama that we explore throughout the entire book.

Practice Questions
Write your answers by hand or share them in a practice group.

1. Do you feel moved by weddings?

2. Do you believe it is possible to maintain a nourishing and meaningful connection between these two energies?

3. Try to imagine the inner wedding within you. Where does it take you at this moment?

4. Which illusion did you awaken from in the past year?

5. How is this illusion related to the dynamics of feminine and masculine energy?

Chapter 35: This Is a Life Challenge, and Within It Lie the Answers to Most Questions

If we have arrived here, it means we have already traveled a considerable distance. And at the same time, it is very possible that we feel there is still much to learn. Both of these things are equally true. Precisely the deeper we enter these contents, the clearer it becomes how long the road still is, and how many layers remain to be discovered. This is the nature of a living process. Knowledge expands as we approach it, not the other way around.

For this reason, as in other courses and other deep learning processes, repetition has great value. Re-reading. Renewed contemplation. And if possible, learning in a group, shared dialogue, or even teaching others. All of these are not superfluous. On the contrary. They allow the information not only to be heard, but to truly be absorbed, integrated, and become part of us. Not as something new arriving from outside, but as something that reminds us of deep knowledge already present within us, very deep inside.

Here we enter Part Twelve of the process and ask a question that appears simple, yet touches the very heart of the human life challenge: Why do we truly get excited at weddings. Yes, over the years some grow tired of the ritual, some have divorced, some have been hurt, some have encountered the gap between the excitement of the big evening and what came afterward. Life experience teaches us that the ritual itself is not a guarantee of what will follow.

And yet, there is something about this event, about this ritual, that activates something deep within us. Something that moves the heart. Something that connects us to an ancient longing, to an experience of connection, union, and coming home. From here this chapter is born, seeking to observe why weddings still move us, even when we are aware of the complexity, fragility, and possible costs.

This excitement is not accidental. It stems from encountering before our eyes a living symbol of a central life challenge. A challenge in which lie answers to many of the questions we ask ourselves again and again. At times, even when watching a wedding scene in a film, or seeing a short video clip, an inexplicable emotion arises. In that moment, perhaps we touch, if only for a fraction of a second, the core of a deep question concerning our own lives.

That moment allows us to step slightly out of routine. Out of the small and large dramas, out of endless doing, out of the chase. It allows us to observe the central challenge of human life in a cleaner way. Not through daily problems, but through a wider picture, in which lie answers to questions we search for through long, sometimes painful journeys of trial and error, success and failure.

This does not mean that if we understand this we will abandon practical life. On the contrary. This understanding can allow us to meet our daily lives more accurately. This challenge, which is fundamentally spiritual, is realized precisely through simple things: relationships, work, decisions, initiatives, ways of coping with problems and ways of understanding them. It is woven into all of these, even when we are unaware of it.

Therefore there is value in a momentary pause. A pause that is not cynical. Not dismissive. A pause that allows itself to be moved by a wedding. Because in that event there exists a symbolic story that represents what we are doing here. Not necessarily through one single ceremony, but as an ongoing process of connection.

The wedding ritual, in almost every culture, every community, and every people, is a powerful ritual. Time, intention, energy, family, friends, and community are invested in it. Not by chance. Not only from social or moral considerations. There is something in it that transcends ordinary life, something that touches a deeper layer. In many places, a wedding is seen as an event that stands slightly above life, an event involving energies, because within us exists a deep longing for a wedding. A longing to come home.

This longing lives within us, even if we are not aware of it. At times we are reminded of it through being moved by a ritual, through watching, through an external experience that activates something internal. This excitement is not just a fleeting emotion. It is information. It is a reminder. Within busy, confusing daily lives, saturated with pressures, anxieties, uncertainty, burnout, conflicts, reconciliations, and disappointments, it is very easy to forget where we came from and where we are heading.

Even when we remember, we forget again. Therefore we need experiential reminders from time to time. A moving wedding is a moment that stops time. For a moment, nothing else matters. Troubles, considerations, and worries are set aside, and we gather around a deep human, familial, and relational experience.

One who undergoes a process of learning the feminine masculine dynamic is invited to look at this excitement not only as a spectator, but as something that touches them personally. Even if I am not particularly close to the couple, even if I am a distant guest, something in this event speaks to me. Not because of family closeness, but because deep within me I am always longing for an inner wedding.

Even a married person, even someone in a relationship, is not exempt from this longing. Because the symbol does not refer only to an external couple, but to an internal movement. Symbols are gateways. They allow knowledge to reach us through experiential, metaphorical, imaginative channels, not only through logic.

One can ignore the excitement. One can belittle it. And one can also listen to it. To ask how this connection we see before our eyes touches the life challenge we face. The challenge of inner connection between the feminine energy and masculine energy within us.

This is the challenge of multiplicity. This is the higher challenge. This is a process in which a person moves from a narrow perception of self as a separate entity, to a broader understanding of being also spirit, also part of the whole. Within this process, when the inner movement between the two poles is renewed, something deep occurs. Anxieties calm. Intuition flows. Insights appear. Questions that were tangled begin to clarify.

When the inner wedding occurs, it can be renewed again and again. Daily. This is a living process. And when harmony becomes established, space opens for creation, realization, and life that feels more whole.

If so, this is what the wedding symbolizes for us. A deep human longing for connection between the feminine and masculine energies within us. At times we receive a reminder of this through a young couple, or through a moving ritual, inviting us to be witnesses, but also participants, in the journey of life itself.

Practice Questions
Write your answers by hand or share them in a practice group.

1. What is, in your view, the greatest challenge of your life right now?

2. How do you see the balance between feminine and masculine energy in this challenge?

3. How could your feminine energy improve regarding this challenge?

4. How could your masculine energy improve regarding this challenge?

5. How could a “wedding” between them, as explained in the chapter, improve how you function with this challenge?

Chapter 36: The Wedding Must Be Renewed Every Day, Almost Every Moment

We arrive at Chapter Thirty-Six, the third chapter of Part Twelve, and it touches the concept of the wedding on a spiritual, emotional, and transformative level. When throughout the entire book we speak about feminine energy and masculine energy, we are in fact speaking again and again about merging, fertilization, connection, cooperation, deep partnership, and a living, dynamic bond between two fundamental forces that compose human existence.

The word wedding carries a very strong emotional, spiritual, and psychological resonance, and therefore it is important to dwell on it and understand why we return to it here, at the end of the journey. It is an inner ideal, a direction, an aspiration, and also one of the places where we struggle the most. In a deep sense, this is what we seek throughout our lives, even if we seek it through relationships, partnerships, family and social connections, work, creativity, or any other framework.

Ultimately, if we deepen and truly listen, we will discover that this search takes place within us. Through relationships, partnerships, family and social connections, we seek connection in order to remember something internal, to realize within us the connection between the two great energies. In spiritual terms one could say this is the connection that allows us to encounter the divine within us, not as something external, but as an inner state of wholeness.

What Chapter Thirty-Six seeks to say, continuing directly from the end of Chapter Thirty-Five, is that this wedding must be renewed every day, almost every moment. It is not a one-time event, and it is not a destination that one reaches and remains in. It is an ongoing movement, a continuous practice, a repeated listening to oneself.

The inner wedding occurs every time we connect gut feeling with rational thought, passion with execution, imagination with material reality. It occurs when we connect emotion with logic, naivety with grounded practicality, inner desire with action in the world. None of these sides is more important than the other. There is no hierarchy here. There is a pair.

There is no value in creative potential if it does not meet the world and serve life. And there is no value in action if it is disconnected from the heart, from emotion, from spiritual nourishment. Even if such action brings money, honor, or fame, if it does not nourish the feminine energy, if it does not deepen and expand the inner experience, it remains empty of meaning.

In the same way, there is no value in life if it is not perceived within the axis of life and death, and there is no value in death if it is not understood as an inseparable part of life. At every given moment we have an opportunity, a possibility, an inner call, to renew the wedding within us. To invite into the inner space the energy that is less active at the moment, to strengthen it, to nurture it, and at the same time to soften the overly dominant energy, to make room for the other.

When we do this, we increase the number of moments of excitement that arise from authentic inner fertilization. Thus the experience of the wedding transforms from something rare and one-time into something living, present, and more frequent, without needing to seek external thrills or special events. The wedding takes place within daily life, within life itself.

The wedding must be renewed every day, almost every moment. Therefore we must notice when we have forgotten. When we have forgotten that two energies operate within us. When we have been carried too far in one direction. At times this will appear as heaviness, pessimism, melancholy, or a sense of stagnation. In such states, sometimes we have distanced ourselves from the living, present, quiet, and healing feminine energy, but at other times what is missing is masculine energy that supports, stabilizes, and mobilizes.

For feminine energy to function well, to surrender, to rest, to dwell, to slow down, it needs the accompaniment of a protective masculine energy, one that creates safety and allows calm. Otherwise, the fear of sinking, depression, or loss of direction is justified. When an energy remains alone for too long, its isolation may manifest through pain.

Masculine energy, too, when operating without the accompaniment of feminine energy, can exhaust itself. It does not know when to stop, when to listen, when to observe. It may enter a constant race of doing, achievement, self-proof, and ego expansion. All of these can be vital and blessed, but only when there exists a feminine energy that moderates, gives meaning, and reminds us of experience.

Here awareness work is required. A mental and spiritual effort of observation. To ask ourselves where am I right now. Which energy is more active. What is the state of the other energy. What is missing for me in this moment to renew the connection. And when the connection occurs, when both energies are nurtured and invited, an experience of inner abundance, satisfaction, joy, and a sense of being in the right place is born.

This is the inner wedding. This is the inner fertilization. And it is not always easy. At times it requires leaving the comfort zone. At times it requires bringing masculine energy that pulls us out of a stagnation we thought was a safe place. But there is no single right place to be. We live in movement. And this pendulum movement is the movement of growth.

Also on a social level, the environment does not always support change. There is a tendency to desire routine, stability, absence of surprises. When there is no room for surprise, creative masculine energy is lacking. When there is obsessive holding onto what exists, feminine energy struggles to renew itself. The healthy process is one of ongoing searching, challenge, and renewal, born of continuous cooperation.

Constantly, each side learns from the other, receives from it, and is updated through it. And this is the process we must do within ourselves. To ask, in this moment, what is missing for me to renew the wedding. Not only through intellectual analysis, but through observing life itself, the recent days, the inner movement.

Which energy is dominant. In what ways. Which energy is weakened. Does it express itself also in unwanted ways. And what small change, what gentle effort, can allow renewed connection.

At times the effort is required precisely on the feminine side. For example, the ability to slow down, to wait, to agree to simply be. This too sometimes requires strength. The ability to choose slowness, listening, breathing, is part of the work. And the more we practice this conscious play between feminine and masculine energy, the closer we come to the experience of the inner wedding, healing ourselves, releasing stagnation, and allowing life to be more creative, joyful, and fulfilling.

Practice Questions
Write your answers by hand or share them in a practice group.

1. How do you recognize when fertilization between the two energies has occurred within you?

2. How can you improve your daily contribution to the correct balance between them?

3. Think for a moment about a domain you tend to neglect, and from time to time awaken to realize it might deserve more care.

4. How can your masculine energy address this domain better, already today?

5. How can your feminine energy address this domain better, already today?

Chapter 37: In the Present Moment of Certainty, the Two Energies Can Be Connected and Felt as Deeply Nourishing

The dynamics between feminine energy and masculine energy, part thirteen, now invite us to contemplate a particularly deep and beautiful possibility: the possibility of transforming the uncertainty that accompanies our lives, even if only for certain moments, into a sweet, living, and accessible certainty. Not a rigid certainty, not a certainty that promises a specific future, but a certainty that exists here and now, within the present moment itself.

How pleasant this can be, and even healing, to know that there is at least one point in life where things are clear. One point where there is no need to know what will happen in an hour, tomorrow, or next year. One point where it is possible to connect the feminine energy and the masculine energy and experience a sense of wholeness, clarity, and even pleasure. The final three chapters of this book seek to explore this possibility, not as a philosophical theory, but as a practical gift that arises from understanding the dynamics between these two great energies.

It can be imagined as the meeting of two powerful energies that usually operate under complex, sometimes even contradictory conditions, and suddenly meet in one precise place. A place where their purpose to work together is received with relative ease, almost naturally. Not through effort, but because this is the right place for them to meet. The question is: when does this place exist?

It can be called the present moment of certainty. The present moment of certainty is now. This very moment. As you are reading these words, as your attention is present here. This is a moment that constantly renews itself, and yet it is the only moment in which absolute certainty exists. We are here. We are present. We know that we are here. This is the only true certainty available to a human being.

Everything else can change. The future can dissolve, renew itself, expand, or contract. The past no longer exists and lives mainly in memory and interpretation. We do not truly know what will happen in a few minutes, and certainly not in days or years. But in the present moment, there is a clear knowing: I am here, now. In a very deep sense, this is the only time that truly exists. Everything else is mental movement around it.

What is special about the present moment, and not always obvious to us, is that this is the moment in which the greatest amount of energy is available. Even if we are tired, even if circumstances are not ideal, this is still the moment in which life gives us the best it can offer at that time. Here there is availability. Here there is possibility. Here there is certainty.

The great difficulty of modern human beings is remaining in this moment. Consciousness is repeatedly pulled toward the past and the future, toward worries, regrets, expectations, and fears. The more we dwell there, the weaker our sense of certainty becomes, and the further we move from the ability to connect feminine and masculine energy. Anxiety, pressure, and confusion are direct results of drifting away from the present.

When I manage to be present in the moment, and when I have cultivated some inner flexibility and inner clarity, something else becomes possible. In this moment, I can feel the two energies connecting. There is a quiet, almost gentle invitation to connection, as if a plane opens in which the meeting becomes easier.

In the present moment, I can feel my passions. Not only immediate urges, but the deeper, central passion that guides me. This inner guidance does not shout. It is present. It speaks through the body, through sensation, through intuition and imagination. The more skilled I become at staying present, the more attuned I am to this information.

In the present moment, it is also possible, to some extent, to filter excessive self-criticism, doubts, and fears. Not to eliminate them, but not to let them dominate the space. This allows a deeper connection to feminine energy, the one that brings the wish, the direction, the creative channel. All of this exists here, now.

And in that very same moment, masculine energy is also available. In the present moment are the mental, emotional, and practical resources required for the next step. Not for the entire journey. Not for the grand plan. Just for the first step. This is an important skill of masculine energy: knowing how to act one step forward, while listening to what is born in feminine energy.

When I start thinking about all future steps, I am again pulled out of the present moment. But when I ask myself a simple question, what is the step I can take now, or today, within the reasonable frame of this moment, then a living connection between the two energies becomes possible. Feminine energy brings the passion, and masculine energy responds with action.

This is what I call a moment of certainty. A certainty worth recognizing, seeking, focusing on, listening to, and practicing. It is a certainty that promises nothing beyond itself, yet it holds great power. At this point, small and large miracles can occur. It is a kind of wedding ceremony taking place in the present, a living connection in which feminine and masculine energies meet, nourish one another, and give birth to new movement in life.

Practice Questions:

1. At this very moment, what feels absolutely certain to you?

2. At this very moment, what is your passion for change, creation, progress, challenge, or movement?

3. How do you feel toward this passion right now?

4. Is your masculine energy ready to join its feminine counterpart in this moment?

5. If so, what is the first step masculine energy suggests after receiving the energetic information from feminine energy?

Chapter 38: Allowing the Creative Force to Break Through from Moments of Uncertainty

This chapter is the second-to-last chapter in the process we are going through together. The dynamics between feminine and masculine energy are not learned in a single moment, nor acquired as closed knowledge. This is ongoing, cyclical learning that continues to evolve with life itself. We encounter it again and again at different points of existence, attempt to apply it, test ourselves, correct, rebalance, and return to the same principle from a slightly different place.

This can be seen as a conception of continuous learning. In many ways, this approach is identified with feminine energy, which does not seek a sharp ending but an ongoing process. Masculine energy often tends to learn something and mark it as complete, while feminine energy seeks to stay in motion, to return, to deepen, and to dwell. Both movements are necessary, and here we continue the process begun in the previous chapter.

In Chapter 37, I spoke about the present moment and the possibility of connecting the two energies within it, experiencing a sense of wholeness even if only momentarily. Chapter 38 continues this line, while also returning us to the beginning, to a very deep foundational concept: the creative force. The question of how much we, as human beings, allow ourselves to feel that we possess the power to create is not a technical question. It is an existential one.

The word creation carries several meanings. It relates to health, creativity, formation, and becoming. There is a deep connection between a person’s sense of well-being and their relationship with their inner creative force. The more a person feels disconnected from their creative power, small in relation to it or dependent on it alone, the weaker they may feel. Conversely, when a person learns to recognize their creative force, to use it, activate it, and give it expression, something within their inner system reorganizes.

The creative force exists in every person. Every person creates, even if they do not define themselves that way. Sometimes creation is conscious and clear, and sometimes it occurs without our awareness. Life itself presents us with situations in which we are required to create, renew, change, and bring into being something that did not exist before. I argue that this is not merely an option but a deep necessity. Healthier living requires acts of creation, renewal, and change.

Here enters the concept of uncertainty. At first glance, uncertainty is perceived as something problematic, something to be avoided. Often, the response to uncertainty comes from a masculine viewpoint that seeks control, clear knowledge, elimination of surprises, and absolute order. Indeed, there are many areas in life where certainty, boundaries, and clarity are essential. Even here, in this process, there is structure, chapters, duration, and repetition.

But when the need for certainty becomes overly dominant, and uncertainty is perceived as a threat, we lose access to the spaces in which the creative force can operate. Much of existence unfolds precisely in vague, open, unresolved spaces. Feminine energy operates there. Creation begins there. “The spirit of God hovering over the waters” describes an initial, unstructured state from which creation emerges.

When masculine energy tries to dominate too early, to impose order prematurely, to dictate structure before the material has matured, confusion arises. The connection to the creative force weakens because feminine energy has not been given its place. Feminine energy comes first. It creates the space.

When we learn to connect to the present moment, to the true certainty of now, we can also connect to intuitive certainty. Intuition does not arrive with many question marks. It arrives with a quality of knowing. Even if masculine energy struggles to acknowledge it, the inner quality of intuition is clarity.

The moments we tend to call uncertainty are, in fact, moments of freedom. These are spaces in which the creative force can break through, transform life, heal, nurture, and renew. This space requires softness, curiosity, containment, and gentleness. When we allow ourselves to dwell there, the moment can become a creative celebration.

But when we fear these moments, fear boredom, vagueness, lack of answers, we shrink the inner freedom necessary for creation. The fear of wasting time, the fear of being without clear action, closes the gate. The creative force needs space. If it does not materialize, one might ask whether we truly allowed that space.

Sometimes the space is given, but when the creative force begins to rise from within, fear appears. Fear of judgment, fear of failure, fear of loss, fear of looking foolish. Then masculine energy is recruited again to a non-supportive role, to closure and stopping. But the creative force does not function this way. It flows. It does not stutter or overcalculate.

Those who have experienced intuitive creation know these moments. Moments when thinking quiets, and feminine energy is allowed to lead. Precisely there, masculine energy is invited into a different role: protection, presence, and willingness to remain within what it labels uncertainty.

In this place, uncertainty is not lack. It is space. A space one can dwell in, listen within, and rest. From there, creative action can emerge, when masculine energy joins with its tools at the right time.

Sometimes there is no other way. Planning does not work, advice does not help, thinking loops endlessly. Then one must stop. Dwell. Not rush. Not force immediate results. Allow feminine energy to create an inner womb, conditions, nourishment. Within this womb, the idea can grow, just as an embryo grows for nine months, without haste.

Thus, we are invited to allow the creative force to break through from moments of uncertainty. Not to fear them, but to see them as a gate. A gate to more creative, connected, and healthy living.

Practice Questions:

1. What frightens you about uncertainty?

2. What excites you about uncertainty?

3. Give two examples of things you once felt certain about and later realized you were mistaken.

4. Give an example of a truly useful idea that arose precisely when you were not active, productive, or practical.

5. In which areas of your life would it be beneficial to create more “islands” of uncertainty?

Chapter 39: Life as a Pendulum: Recognizing the Oscillations, Acting Accordingly, and Connecting the Two Forces More and More

The preparation of this final course happened relatively quickly for me, something I noticed only in retrospect. Sometimes, when dealing with foundations, when touching the deepest layers of understanding, things organize themselves. There is a sense that the knowledge already exists, familiar from within, simply asking to be named.

Before entering the depth of this chapter, it is important for me to pause and say that on the level of model and perspective, we are dealing with a fundamental principle. A basic building block of existence. Perhaps this is why the experience feels fast and simple—not superficial simplicity, but deep simplicity that touches the root.

One can imagine two tiny particles, almost invisible. One is feminine energy, the feminine pole. The other is masculine energy, the masculine pole. Together, they are the energetic building blocks of existence. Everything we experience, everything constructed beyond them, emerges from various combinations of these two elements.

Their dynamics are alive, in constant motion. From the most microscopic level to the broad collective level, the same question arises repeatedly: what is the nature of the relationship between the two poles? Is there balance? Is there mutual fertilization? Or instead of mutual fertilization, is there mutual interference?

This is a simple yet profound law. When there is no good communication, there is bad communication. When there is no fertilization, there is interference. This interference is not punishment but a symptom, a signal, a friction that indicates imbalance.

In what we study here, courses, videos, conversations, we work at the macro level. But within each of us there is also a micro level. There is an unconscious. There is an energetic foundation of existence that is mostly hidden from view. We cannot measure it with ordinary tools, but we can feel it. As one approaches such studies, an intuitive, experiential recognition develops, teaching something profound: experiential awareness is far broader and deeper than intellectual awareness alone.

And now, Chapter 39. The chapter that concludes this process. Life as a pendulum.

Life itself operates as a pendulum. There are oscillations. Cycles. Constant movement between two poles. Day and night. Activity and rest. Action and pause. Masculine and feminine energy exist not only within us but in the structure of life itself.

During the day, we are usually more alert, productive, active. This is a zone dominated by masculine energy. Toward evening and night, we slow down. Vision softens. The body seeks rest. We become more inward, emotional, seeking closeness. This is a zone dominated by feminine energy.

This is a daily pendulum. We are not meant to cancel either side. On the contrary, we are meant to recognize it, synchronize with it, and integrate the complementary energy into each pole.

When we initiate, act, and push forward without stopping, without listening, without allowing pause, masculine energy eventually exhausts itself. Then difficulties, breakdowns, and malfunctions appear—not as punishment, but as life’s attempt to restore balance.

And when we remain too long in the feminine zone, preservation, fear of change, avoidance, a call arises to move, to act. If we ignore it, the pendulum will push us through more painful means.

Our role is to develop awareness of this pendulum. To feel the oscillations. Not resist them. Not cancel them. But learn to work with them. Sometimes even initiating them consciously, to live more balanced lives.

Life is full of signals. Seasons. Bodily cycles. Creative cycles. Everything speaks pendulum. If we ignore it, it enforces itself. If we synchronize with it, it carries us.

This principle underlies, for example, Chinese medicine in the bodily realm. Here we expand it into an entire lifestyle. A way of life applicable to every domain.

There is a time to be bold, initiating, acting, surprising. And a time to slow down, listen, dwell, be with pain, be with silence. Both are always needed. Not simultaneously, but as movement. As a pendulum.

Perhaps this is the deepest learning of this book: to recognize the pendulum, seek it, listen to it, consult it, and rely on it. Not only in major life moments but in everyday, small moments.

If we succeed, we can live lives that contain both action and rest, initiative and listening, grounding and openness to spirit.

This is not the end of the road. It is a step on a very large path, a path that we, as individuals and as humanity, are walking together.

Practice Questions:

1. What are the most important things you believe you learned in this course?

2. What new questions arose for you through this process?

3. How do you feel today about the concept of inner leadership?

4. Where does your pendulum currently lean—toward feminine or masculine energy?

5. What will change in your life when this pendulum moves in a more symmetrical, mutual, and connective way between the two energies?