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Cosmic Time
Dr. Pinkie Feinstein
Chapter 1: Time Is Now
This book summarizes special study meetings that took place in the Psycho-Creative world as part of the advanced studies for the students of the Psycho-Creative training programs for facilitation, coaching, and teaching. These study meetings constitute a form of “higher guidance” and they are focused on what we shall now call “Cosmic Time,” which is the space in which, according to this view, true time exists. It is also the infinite space for healing and creativity, a space that we are presently in a period of learning how to enter, how to return to, and how to increase its presence in our lives.
Intuitive Painting, as a primary and distinct Psycho-Creative tool, stands at the far end of the spectrum between right brain and left brain, in favor of the right brain, fewer words, more play, symbols, movement, and an open emotional space.
In Psycho-Creative coaching, we combine intuition with reason, dialogue, and structure, and we allow a transformative process for both the coach and the trainee.
In the Addiction Recovery Instructors Course we study the core psychological mechanisms of stuckness and release, to see that natural human movement is between pain and change, between stagnation and flow.
In the Psycho-Creative Teachers Course we cultivate a learning space that is delightful and healing, how to teach from delight, how to touch inner wisdom, and how to build a soft authority that originates from within.
All these methods, intuitive creation, coaching, learning through delight, and recovery, converge to one place, “Cosmic Time.” This is a concept that seeks to repair our relationship with conventional “time,” with the clock, the schedule, day and night and twenty four hours, which are, in the end, consensual constructions. Cosmic Time is first of all experiential time, a space that we experience from within and change from within. As physicists have noted from another point of view, it is possible to contract time or to expand it, not through the “hands of the clock” but through experience. Experience, in this sense, maneuvers time, plays with it, influences it, and acts within it.
An old memory from age five illuminates this simply, a child says “soon” to his friend who asks him “when will we arrive” as they walk for the first time toward the home of the first child, when in fact they are already standing right in front of the house. His experiential “soon” does not resemble at all the time on the clock hands. It is a description of a state of mind and not a measurement of linear time, “soon.”
So it is with us as well, when we enjoy, time passes quickly, when we do not, it “drags.” What determines is not the clock but the quality of experience. Therefore I tend to say, the most real thing available to a person is the person’s experience, even if it is factually “wrong,” it is still the person’s truth and the person has no other truth at that moment. Experience can be changed, and when experience changes, time changes as well.
From the broad point of view, there is no beginning and there is no end, there is a continuous present, now, and within it what we call “past” and “future.” The past is not one single story, supposedly “objective,” there is only the manner in which we experienced the events from within. It is a collection of impressions from innumerable previous present moments. The future is a collection of potentials for future present points, possible stories that we invite through our choices now. The essence of Cosmic Time is the recognition that I create it, that I choose it, and that I influence it. Psycho-Creative tools strengthen the ability to position oneself in the “now,” to generate transformation, and to heal.
In true time my deep identity is not identical to influences. The traumas, the pains, the karma, the genetics, everything influences, but none of it is truly “I.” The higher task is to connect to the deeper and wider identity, to the love that holds everything, and to the capacity for creation that arises from the “now.” The future, with its sweet uncertainty, invites taking the impressions of the past and brewing movement from them. This is how healing occurs, changing an impression, changing a response, expanding choice.
From here comes also the view regarding the concept of “self-realization.” We often imagine it as a “distant peak.” The simple truth, self-realization happens now. At every moment we are at the maximum expression that is possible for us in the “now,” and it is always possible to improve the next “now.” One cannot “violate” the soul’s contract, we cannot truly run away from ourselves. In fact, a person is not able to “fail to realize oneself.” A person is doing it right at this very moment and can only expand in it when the person expands the creative and expressive skills of the person’s “I.” That frustration regarding the gap that allegedly exists between “self-realization” and “what exists at this moment” arises from excessive self-criticism and from a misunderstanding of the role of a person within the person’s life, which is to be within life and to make from life the best that is possible at a given moment. Since each person is doing the person’s best at a given moment, precisely “now,” then the person is in fact realizing oneself, in every single moment.
The freedom that is usually associated with the phrase “self-realization” lies in the constant coming closer to the now and in the reduction of distractions from it. When the “now” becomes clear, the volume of the soul’s whispers rises, and we hear more clearly the creative drive, what to create, what to bring to the world, and how to act.
Within daily practice this translates into work, intuitive writing that connects to the now and ignites flow without criticism, intuitive painting that extracts creativity even when there is no “plan,” spontaneous standing before a video or an audience, to arrive without knowing, and to allow the information to come out in real time. This is not directionless or “empty” doing, it is a movement of trust, to come open, to work with right brain and left brain, to listen to what arises, and to learn to give it more room for expression.
The discussion in this meeting helped to deepen the ideas. A question arose about “linear age” and “young” desires. In a Cosmic view there is no “missing out,” there are versions of ourselves that are updated. What could not happen then did not fit that version. Everything that is learned is recorded, every experience is sacred. From there a gentle possibility is born to convert regret into self-love, and to see that every step was part of the growth plan.
Just as it is not truly possible “to fail to realize ourselves,” it is not truly possible “to miss ourselves.” Missing out is an invention of linear time, whose contents include a range of experiences of emptiness, lack, loss, and even failure. These we are going to change here, by connecting to Cosmic Time, in which such concepts and possibilities do not exist at all.
A question was also asked about moments of difficulty in the present, whether within pain one “loses something.” In Cosmic Time we are invited to assume that there is a value of development and growth even in the painful experience, even if this is not yet visible. A few small drops of optimism that repeat themselves, and as will be clarified later are easier to “recruit” within the space of Cosmic Time, are sufficient to change the level of drama and to open a window to transformation.
We will want to learn here to distinguish between linear time, which is fed by the clock and which contains many elements of anxiety, fear of the unknown, and scripts of loss, loss of time, waste of time, and Cosmic Time, which nourishes creativity, spontaneity, and a breathing present.
Dependence on linearity strengthens addictions, fear of the future, need for control, comparisons, competitiveness, a sense of worthlessness. Recovery is a return to the “now,” more love, less criticism, more creativity. There the realization is not a distant goal but a living action, here.
I will note this again, there exists an addiction to linear time because, like all addictions, it ultimately constitutes a kind of “harmful habit,” although it is seemingly one of the foundations of human reality. As long as the attention to linear time is excessive and exaggerated while ignoring the existence of Cosmic Time, linear time constitutes a core for addiction, and release from it constitutes, in fact, a kind of recovery process and a remembering of the existence of Cosmic Time, which is an absolute, pulsing now.
The place of the Psycho-Creative Triangle in Cosmic Time,
the Psycho-Creative Triangle is composed of Self-Love, at the top vertex, Reduction of Self-Criticism and Emotional Consciousness or Emotional Creativity, at the base vertices. The three vertices feed one another, reducing criticism increases love and grants creative freedom, practicing emotional creativity quiets criticism and opens the heart to love, self-love softens criticism, gives free space to creativity, and in fact holds the entire play. The Psycho-Creative Triangle is a kind of “vehicle” in the spaces of Cosmic Time, through it we approach the energetic traces of the past, that which is accessible now, and we convert them into movement toward the future. There is no obligation to reconstruct all the details or to “repair” according to a template, the invitation is to work with what is open and accessible in experience, and to allow creativity and love to do their work.
Thus the image of the future also changes. The impressions of the past color the images of the future that we are able to see. When we change the impression of the past, with love, with reduction of criticism, with creation, the potentials of the future are updated, new options open, desires become sharper, and old directions fade. This is the mechanism of personal creation, the present connects between the influence of the past and the potential of the future, and choice, one more choice and one more, generates the next chapters in the human story.
Finally, the understanding of trauma becomes moderated. There is no need to beautify pain, when it hurts, it hurts. But in Cosmic Time every influence of the past is also a potential for transformation. When the trapped energy is released, the experience becomes an asset. This is not “repair” in a judgmental sense, a word that can narrow, it is creative transmutation. Feminine energy, impressions, memory, womb, nourishes masculine energy, potential, realization, execution, and the mutual fertilization between them grants the possibility of changing reality, of updating the experience of the “now,” and of expanding the connection to Cosmic Time.
This is the goal here, to gather all the concepts and tools into one place, an experiential present in which we remember who we are, we love more, we judge less, and we create. From here we will set out for a journey, each day to touch a little more of the “now,” to improve the listening to it through the channels of desire, to play, to surrender, and to allow the future to be born from what is open now.
Chapter 2: Dreaming Within the Dream
We move along a seam between a familiar logic of “the world and its laws” and a more advanced layer that I call “experiential research.” In experiential research there is not only “thought,” there is existence, action, experiential proof, experiential healing, and an experience of time.
The concepts there are not absorbed through a dictionary definition but through the body, the emotion, and consciousness. They open when we are willing to dwell within them. The Psycho-Creative world is intended precisely for this, to extract us from the conventional and narrowing understanding, and to expand it by means of tools that move within the experiential space, a space in which it is possible to be, to breathe, to influence, and to grow into a form of existence that contains more compassion, creation, love, and desire.
At the center of this research stands what we call “time.” Experience is a place in which one can move, and if there is movement, we will always ask from where and to where. Cosmic Time asks “where am I now,” because time, in the end, positions.
The hour, the date, the age, they are all attempts to fix a point on an axis. However, the positioning that linear time provides is narrow and separating. It breaks the “now” into “before” and “after,” and it causes us to forget the only meeting point that truly pulses and is relevant, the present. Within the “now” there is no “before” and there is no “after,” and if they appear, they too occur within the “now.” Any other view narrows the field, and here most human distresses begin, when the “now” contracts, the powers of healing, joy, and desire also contract with it.
Therefore I practice again and again creating a meeting between different “times” within the present. A letter from me of yesterday to me of today is a simple yet powerful example. Yesterday, in the “now” of yesterday, I write to my “future I,” today, in the “now” of today, I meet who I was. In ordinary time we live in a narrative of ongoing loss, what was “was lost,” what will be “is not yet,” and in between remains constriction. In Cosmic Time there is no “loss,” there is a change of location and a change in the focus of attention, and still all the materials are accessible. It is possible to pull them, to create connection, to nourish from there the truth of who I am in a wider and fuller manner.
Thus I also replace the concept of “truth.” No longer a mythological, rigid truth that has to be “exposed” and placed against “falsehood,” but an existential truth that is present in the “now.” A truth that is revealed when I am awake to experience and not when it is examined by the “hands of time.”
This truth says, existence does not flee. It moves, it updates, it expands, but it is not “lost.” To live this truth means to investigate the consensual rules and to rise above them from within, to be still within the dream, and at the same time to dream a dream that awakens me from that very dream. This is the simple and beautiful paradox that I recognize again and again through the guidance within me, in order to be in the more real and wider reality, one must “dream within the dream.”
We are here within a dream that has goals, lessons, and rules. Development is the capacity to exit the dream within the dream, not by escape but by expansion of consciousness. Some use substances to peek for a moment beyond the fence. I prefer to develop the capability from within. When I allow myself to dream another dream within the dream, to see the desire, to converse with it, to write to it, something in the structure peels. Ordinary time loses its status, and the “now” fills with more layers.
Once, in a workshop, I asked people to write themselves a love letter and to deposit it at the post office. A few days later that letter landed in their mailbox, and they met themselves anew. A simple act that became a living meeting, here and now I read what I wrote for another now, and suddenly a continuous connection is experienced between two points of the same I. In the experiential story of that moment the person experiences the person’s love, which is eternal and without temporality, that “wandered” from the “past” to the “present.”
This is a practice that dismantles separateness and connects to the “we” within me, the continuum of my versions, the visible and the hidden, working with each other, nourishing each other. Cosmic Time is “together time,” linear time is in fact a time of isolation.
The deeper I go into experiential research the clearer “proof” also becomes. Experiential proof is a moment in which the inner system says “this is it, I know,” even if I do not yet have a complete and reasonable explanation to offer others. The body knows before the explanation. This is not a consensual proof but a personal one, and still, when I bring it into creation, and I express my experiential truth with tools of authentic expression and I expose them to others, I grant them an opportunity to meet their experiential proofs. Thus knowledge rolls forward, not only as an idea but as a healing force.
The image of cinema helps. When I watch a good film, I am drawn into a world within minutes and I forget for a while the “here.” Experiential research invites me to develop an “inner cinema” in which I pass between halls with a “remote control” that moves, as I wish, my attention. Different segments within me change one another in real time, the 2020 version influences the 2025 version and is influenced by it, and what I choose now echoes forward and backward.
At times I even feel a visit from my future self, that self is “already there,” and it is present here, in my “now,” with suggestions, guidance, directions, recommendations, and hints. From this point of view the future is also a living and breathing field, it is a collection of potentials for the coming present moments which in one way or another “communicate” with my current point of attention.
From here comes also a new understanding of “what happened.” In linear time “what happened” describes a final and “sealed” event. There is not much to do with “what happened” because it “already happened and that is it,” however, in experiential time matters look entirely different, “what happened” is an energetic inscription that can be updated. What remains in me from the event is not the “objective truth,” but mainly the experiential impression, very specific parts of the event that were engraved and that were chosen to represent an infinite space of additional events that are supposedly “forgotten.” When I update the impression and move to a flexible experiential view of “what happened,” I change the “now.” Turning “what happened” into a more flexible and wider picture is one of the foundations of healing in Cosmic Time, to which we shall arrive later.
From the other side, to “what will happen,” that which is called “future,” which is often perceived as a space that contains mainly or only “uncertainty,” and therefore quite a bit of anxiety, this too can become a much more flexible and influenceable space, for example by an entry of consciousness with self-visualization of “the future that has already happened.” I allow the desired future reality to exist within me as if it “already happened,” and then the practical doors of “how to increase the potential that this will indeed happen” open.
In a certain manner it is possible to influence the future like this, as well as the past, through a creative play from the present and through an experiential recognition of how much those times are not so distant and rigid, but are open to influence, to positive maneuvering, to creativity, and to play. This understanding and its application are milestones in spiritual acceleration.
This is how healing occurs. Trauma, karma, memories, they are not all that defines the “I,” they are only influences. They are raw materials that remained within me as energetic traces. When they receive love, when I reduce criticism, when I act creatively, the stuck energy is released and becomes fertilizer for growth. At the moment that an event that was “burdensome” is turned into an asset, the future is updated. The junction of the “now” expands, the number of possibilities grows, and the preferences change by themselves. There is no need to dig endlessly into the details of the past in order to heal it, it is enough to meet honestly what is accessible now, through the experiential story that already exists, this is what the soul allows me to see, and to work with it in a loving presence.
Cosmic Time teaches me “to choose a channel.” There is a channel of the experience of suffering, there is a channel of the experience of victimhood, and there is a channel of an experiential view that is more contemplative, more flexible, more creative, and wider. The choice of this channel returns to me a power that I once handed over to consensual linear time. From this point I am no longer “chased” as before by the clock hands, I am the creator who moves within time space, upward and sideways, forward and backward, and I carry with me the inner crew, the child that I was, the artist that I am, the teacher that I am becoming, and even my future grandchild who is looking at me now. When I write books, it is possible that I am leaving anchors for myself for other versions of myself, not only in order to remember, but in order to “meet.”
In the end, the experiential research of time is not only a beautiful theory, it is a simple and continuous practice, to write to myself in the morning and to open this letter in the evening, to send a letter to three days ahead and to answer it when it arrives, to feel in the body when “this is it, I know” without demanding an immediate explanation, to allow the dream within the dream to generate within me a breath of distance from the current drama, and to return me to the richness of the present.
Each time I do this, the connectivity within me expands, the chronic loss of existence to which I became accustomed dissipates, and the capacity for choice becomes sharper. This is an inner agreement to dwell in an expanding “now.” When the “now” expands, time as a whole expands with it.
Chapter 3: Time Is Not “My Boss”
A question that arose in this lesson was actually about the transition from “what is the issue” to “where am I in relation to it.” One of the students described an experience of non-connection to the lesson, the body may be present, but the heart is elsewhere. Cosmic Time invites a positive formulation of experiential positioning, instead of the conventional description “I am not connected,” we shall choose more the experiential focus of “where am I actually right now, where is my experience focused.”
Cosmic Time points to the existing experience and not to that which “does not exist,” which by virtue of its non-existence is not relevant in fact. Such an approach brings to the transformational table the energy that is present now, including fog, disconnection, and boredom, and turns them into material for creation. This is exactly why in Intuitive Painting one “lands straight onto the page,” we do not arrange reality before creation, we create from what there is. In other words, what is more interesting is where you are now and not where you are not now.
Another student offers a parallel experience, in half a year of Psycho-Creative coaching studies she moves in waves between “I understood” and “I do not know anything.” Here the core lesson of intuition enters, the feminine “I know,” overall reception, softness, network, and the masculine “I know,” choice, focus, decision. The coach peels from a wide field of possibilities one pulsing choice in order to focus on it, the one that has just received within it the highest energy. The choice activates movement, this movement, which goes after what is exciting and vibrating, connects the person to the Cosmic Time within the person.
From here we continued to the common belief about time. Expressions such as “there is no time,” “it is necessary to manage to do everything,” “time is not passing,” “it feels heavy to me,” these are not “facts,” these are emotional definitions that express the experience of time in a very specific manner. When I recognize that these are not “absolute facts” but only experiential beliefs and habits, I can begin to change them.
An interesting suggestion was received, “self time,” an hour of mine with myself, without a role, without a device. This is a distillation of the present, I with myself is already meaning. Julia Cameron, in her book “The Artist’s Way,” called this an “artist date,” to go out alone without a functional goal and to allow the meeting with myself to be the content. At first it is frightening, with repeated practice it becomes sweet and an exciting adventure. The divine I does not need a reason in order to exist, existence itself is the party, and the choice to turn the “now” into a party is in the person’s hands and it is greatly increased when the person connects to Cosmic Time.
It is also possible to “employ” linear time in order to create creative freedom, to set a timer for ten minutes and to let the clock be the gatekeeper instead of the pressure policeman. To define that in this time that we will define “everything is permitted,” to write without stopping, to paint without criticism, to dance without explaining. In this manner linear time turns from a tool that presses into a tool that propels and enables. It is possible to play with this and to discover a whole world, three minutes of dance, six minutes of painting, four minutes of writing, and within the short frames pockets of “no time” open, moments without criticism in which everything is possible.
From here we continued to the axis of past present future. In Cosmic Time the past and the future are not sealed boxes but experiential inscriptions and breathing potentials. What remains from the past within me is not “the objective event” but the energetic impression. In fact, in a broader view, there does not truly exist an “objective event,” which is an attempt to reduce “what was” to one description only. There are many events, according to the angle of view on what is taking place. This is essential for the learning process and for the Cosmic Time view, because when we update the impression of “what was,” we change “what is now.”
Sometimes, after a deep recovery process, a person who was accustomed to identify as “was addicted” changes the person’s impression in retrospect. The memory of the addiction certainly exists, but its power to define the person fades as the impression around that period is updated through the process of healing and transformation. This is not deletion of history, this is the end of validity of a definition. Thus karmas and traumas are dismantled, not by force but by converting stuck energy into growth fertilizer. Thus, in fact, the past is changed.
The senses here are gates. The fact that water is “cold,” supposedly, constitutes “objective” information, but what is truly significant and even determines reality and enables healing and change is what happened within me when I felt it, when I touched it, when I experienced it, which associations and vibrations were aroused. Precisely there, in the experiential place, there exists all the time the possibility for updating, for change, and for moving to a new place, which is entirely dependent on the experiential impression, which, as stated, can be updated and changed.
A simple exercise for shaping the present through the reference to what is called the “future,” “it has already happened.” Instead of “it will be fine,” “it is fine already now.” The experience of “it has already happened” is familiar to the brain and can be activated for the purpose of shaping the future and, through it, influencing the present. To enter experientially into the completion of a process and to experience it as one that “happened in the future,” the book has already been written, although at the moment it is in the process of being written, the approval is already in my possession, although there are still contacts to obtain it, the conversation ended well, although it is presently in the midst of happening.
This “trick” that occurs in the present and that relates to a positive potential future version may increase the level of optimism in the balance of the present point and from there grant a better ability to continue to deal with the current challenge, and even to move, in a non conscious manner, toward the realization of what we defined as “a future that has already happened.” This is how it works, Cosmic Time is indeed a flexible space of play and shaping of reality and not a technical clock whose entire function is to move a hand, tick tock, tick tock.
While we are shaping this future within the present that in fact contains the possibilities of the future, I do not define “how it will happen,” I only allow it to happen within me as a potential that is developing at the point of the present experience. At the moment that the inner system experiences the “future that has already happened,” it generates within it “permission” for its development, and then practicality opens. This is not an escapist illusion but potential management, the future is an array of possibilities, and my inner consent strengthens the one that seeks to be realized.
Even when pain erupts in the present, news, injury, memory, it becomes material for a new journey. Sometimes it is not possible to let go immediately, but the knowledge that it is “releasable,” thanks to previous practice, already changes the impression. To choose an inner channel that describes a future reality that is more desired, more comforting, and less frightening, this is the art of harmonizing with Cosmic Time.
Invitations to practices,
To state clearly “where I am now,” and less “where I am not now.” This is an experiential description of the existing experience, no matter what it is.
To choose one choice from among many possibilities according to what “pulses and excites most now,” and to set out, what “excites” connects more to Cosmic Time.
To set “me time” that is non functional and not “important in terms of results.”
To use the clock as a liberating frame, five minutes of dance, painting, writing.
To play bravely with “it has already happened.”
Each time we do this, we shall move from a relation that is outside time to a creative relation with time. Creation and time merge and here we are within Cosmic Time. We influence time, we move within it and we are not “taken by it.” There, as always, our inner crew is waiting for us, all our versions, all our inner expressions, ready to work together.
Chapter 4: Failure does not exist here
“True time” is not an upgraded clock but a state of consciousness, a state of mind, a “place” that can be connected to through suitable tools and suitable attention. In moments in which it seems that “I lost the sense of time,” I am not “losing,” I am in fact gaining. I am gaining presence, quiet, inner alignment, lightness, clarity. I call this the yes no framework, yes yes, no no. Linear time, with its hands and schedules and deadlines, is a useful convention. However, when the convention dissolves, the “yes” that waited beneath it is revealed, a living space in which the authentic I does not need justifications, grades, measurements, or metrics. This is a moment of “I have returned home,” and this is the touch of Cosmic Time.
Linear time leaves within us built in emotional residues, pressure, urgency, “there is no time,” “I did not manage,” perfectionism, comparison, and expectations. These are not only side effects, they are fuel for the mechanism of excessive self criticism, one of the vertices of the Psycho Creative Triangle.
Thus a delicate addiction forms, to the adrenaline of worry, to the sense of a race, to the story “soon it will be over.” This addiction distances from the creative source and strengthens the gap between who I am and who I am “supposed” to be. Behind this habit hides an ancient fear of the direct encounter with the whole self. It is easier to be occupied with time that supposedly is about to end than to stand in the power of the desire and the freedom of the infinite self within us.
And still, the linear clock is not necessarily a problem. It is a question of the manner in which we use it and relate to it. In painting, in writing, in movement, and in many points of existence, one sometimes sets a frame, not in order to constrict but in order to receive freedom and a balanced space between feminine and masculine energy. The frame guards the door, consciousness crosses through it. In this way a “continuous present” opens, the past and the future gather into a single point of action. Time becomes a flexible material in the hands, an energy that can be kneaded, shaped, thinned, and elevated. In other words, through proper use of “linear time” as a tool that enables a frame that grants freedom and an opportunity for release, one can connect to Cosmic Time, and entry to it depends, at times, precisely on those tools that can be created from the structure of linear time. It is possible to note here with a smile a point of cooperation between earthly conventional time and the wide Cosmic Time, the place in which constriction and expansion press together for the sake of development, growth, and healing.
“Consciousness hygiene” changes the quality of time and grants a person both tools and responsibility for the reality in which the person exists.
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Unsuitable nourishment, in which delight is little and enthusiasm and desire are little, narrows the person into a consciousness of survival and an excessive leaning on linear time, in which reality is more dictated to the person and the person’s capacity to influence it is more meager.
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More suitable nourishment gives birth to ease, flow, joy, excitement, and curiosity, which awaken the person to the possibilities of movement between linear time and Cosmic Time, in which it is possible to experience the capacity to create, to bring into being, and to change.
The language that we use influences the experience of temporality. “I do not manage to do enough” is a language of lack that grants too much attention to the illusion of the perishable aspect of time. “I am fine as I am and I am seeking to move by following my authentic excitement” is a language of choice that grants a person a broader mandate to influence the person’s life, to find in them meaning, delight, and a direction for expression and belonging without pretending. Many times these words and this relation to reality are those from which we can transfer attention from excessive leaning on linear time to a fruitful oscillation between it and Cosmic Time, which is without borders and without limitations.
The consensus around the “normality of time” produces a supposedly objective reality that blurs differences in experience. However, experience is always individual. Two people will stand in the same situation, they will be exposed to the same stimulus, and the inner world that will open within each one will be utterly different. In Cosmic Time we cease demanding of experience that it align to the “objectivity meter,” and we agree to recognize the “subjective” as the main existing reality.
The cultural system, including religions and institutions, has more than once known how to exploit the anxiety of time in order to establish control, to tell a person who the person is, who the person’s God is, how it is “proper” to live, and how to be measured. The closer a person comes to the divine within, to the source, the less controlled the person becomes. The person needs less grading, less ranking, less approval. Cosmic Time dismantles the illusion that self worth depends on measurable output. It returns the freedom to learn without an exam, to move without a single standard, to create without a “sufficient reason.”
Here is the difference between “rituals” and desire is also revealed. Repeated rituals, familial, social, professional, can be beneficial when they are nourished by inner harmony. But when they are conducted against desire, they pull back toward rigid linear time. The schedule tightens, the head fills with calculations, the gaze moves away from the center. Where alignment exists, the clock ceases to be a pressure factor and becomes an auxiliary sign. Time melts, and a quiet wholeness remains.
In Cosmic Time there is no option for failure. Not because every attempt “succeeds,” but because the concept of “failure” relies on measurable time, on a span in which result is compared to expectation and from there judgment regarding the quality of performance and its value is created. In Cosmic Time, every result is information for the next movement within a continuous present. This is a paradigm shift, from the stressful question, exactly as linear time is stressful, “did I meet the target,” to the deeper question that is not a question at all but a state of being, “am I connected in a delightful and satisfying manner to the movement of inner time within me.”
Connection to Cosmic Time means improvement of the alignment between the physical self and the higher self. The alignment creates a natural movement, with a “daily schedule” that contains more listening to intuition and less to the pressures of the to do list and all that resembles it. This improved listening to inner whispers produces a new experience of time, in which there exists an inner movement that is much more important than the movement of the external clock hands.
In this place a person knows when to begin, when to stop, when to change course, when to initiate, when to wait, when to rest and when to act, when to change and when to be in “nothing.” This development turns over time desire into a significant component in guiding the experience of time, since “time that was dedicated to desire has a much higher value than time that was dedicated to anything without desire and excitement.”
Chapter 5: The Hands of Desire
We stand on the seam between a familiar frame of logic, what is called “understanding reality,” and another dimension of research that I shall call experiential research. In experiential research, reality is not only an object for explanation. It is a field of movement. Experience is a place that one enters, moves within, positions oneself in, and within it one also examines, heals, and validates. Proof is not only a datum that people agree upon, it is a full body inner confirmation, an inner absolute experience of “this is it.” It may be that I will not succeed in explaining this in words, but in the entire deep system there is full certainty. This is “experiential proof.”
At the heart of experiential research stands time. Linear time positions, an hour, a day, yesterday, tomorrow. However, linear positioning is mainly separating positioning. It cuts the present into thin pieces, it reduces it to a fragment, “a small moment between before and after,” and there, in this cutting, the human tragedy forms, an experience of constant loss. “Yesterday is dead,” “tomorrow is not yet,” “now is too short.” When the present is diminished, the healing power, the joy of creation, and the joy of life are diminished together with it. All this is due to the persistence of an illusion in which time is a limited resource and not an infinite space as it truly is.
Cosmic Time presents another picture. In the true present there are no “before” and “after” as barriers, and if they appear, they exist within the present, not outside it. The true present is a wide plane in which its different parts, images of “past,” possibilities of “future,” echoes from cycles of life, are accessible. There it becomes clear that I do not lose myself in the stream of days. Parts that I thought were abandoned did not “disappear,” they were moved to a “nearby shelf” in consciousness. It is possible to open the door, to approach the shelf, and to return from them more nourished into now.
Here a new connection between time and truth is created. “Truth” is not an opposite of falsehood or a final verdict. Truth is a state of existence. When I am in Cosmic Time, I see that existence does not flee. It changes, it thickens, it becomes more subtle, but it does not collapse. Such truth is not an “argument.” It is a felt reality that heals a subtle existential sadness, that quiet pain of “I am always losing.” At the moment in which it becomes clear that the connection between the parts of the I is not cut, the small continuous mourning over the feeling of losses that accompanied the drama of linear time alone dissipates. What seems like “loss” is revealed as a shift within the same space and not as things that “went missing.”
From this point it is possible to understand why experience creates reality. When a part within me called “yesterday” meets a part called “today,” a mutual movement is created. The update that I give to the experiential impression of “yesterday” changes who I am “now,” since “now” is the product of the processing of the inscriptions of the past within me. By the same logic, the possibility that “tomorrow” is already present as a frequency influences backward into the present. In the experiential view, the figures of time are not a series of separate objects but a living crew that pulses together. True time is “together time,” just as the true I is in fact “we.”
From here a blessed paradoxical outlook is born. In order to be in reality, I must dream within the dream. “Ordinary life” is a dream with laws, metrics, deadlines, routines, frames. It is a dream that disconnects consciousness from natural, Cosmic time, which is entirely now and in which, in truth, there are no “losses.”
The dream within the dream is the capacity, from within, without desertion and without substances, to lift the gaze, to expand beyond the laws, and to feel the space in which I am not only in constant reactivity to the movement of the clock hands but I myself create the movement of time or at least constitute an important part in its creation. At the moment that I allow myself to dream desire, I change the rules of the game from within. I do not “escape” from life. I awaken within their life.
It is also possible to see this in another manner. The passage from an existence full of “Cosmic Time” toward a compressed reality of “linear time” is like a passage into a dream that seems very real. Within that dream, with those same tools of “creating a dream within existing reality,” it is also possible “to move back” to a parallel reality that exists all the time. Thus, a dream in this sense is not only a state of consciousness that exists during sleep, it is also a “vehicle” for movement from one consciousness to another.
Thus, in this journey, imagination is not “escape.” It is a navigation tool. The image of “consciousness cinema” is useful, countless halls operate simultaneously, each presenting an angle of my life. I can sit in one hall, drama, pressure, running after time, and forget that there is a side door. That door is not a technical device. It is a mindful choice, to change the channel. When I “change the channel,” I leave the intensity of the drama at twenty percent instead of two hundred percent, and I remain available for learning, for creation, for closeness. This choice is not escapism. It is a helpful proportion.
The capacity to move between “scripts of my existence” is one of the significant tools in transformation and in coping with challenging situations. Excessive staying in a space with negative drama symbolizes, therefore, a kind of being pulled into linear time, an addiction to a certain problem, and a distancing from the flexible and creative nature that can move between realities. Addiction anchors the experience in one single reality, and this is probably part of its significant power of influence.
Thus it also becomes clear that the “clock” itself is only a symbol. It does not “move,” I move within spaces of time. The clock is nothing but an entirely technical device that expresses a technical measuring frame. At developed levels of consciousness “clock” does not exist, and only consciousness moves in the field in which it exists.
When I experience that I am the movement, the relation of forces is turned over. It is not time that presses on me, it is desire that guides me. Desire, not as an unrestrained wildness but as a clear inner engine, becomes the frame and also the hand of the inner clock. This is an evolutionary stage, from the need for external boundaries to the spontaneous erection of a structure from within. That inner structure knows when to begin, when to lay down, when to change pace, because it is aligned with the source.
Thus, the paradoxes that are revealed along the way can be less frightening. “Past” and “future” cease to be walls of artificial separation of times and become passages. It is possible to feel how future actions “have already happened” in the experiential sense, not as a denial of the present reality, but as an inner agreement to be possible. When something future exists in the experience of “has already happened” within me, gates open, vision, daring, connections, solutions. This is a creative use of the word “happened,” not as a confession of a simple existence but as an opening of the possibilities of play with time and with the times and the references to them.
Thus clarity in relation to the role of culture is also revealed. The conventions of time, rankings, grades, normality, research that is built on doubt and on the concept that is called “objectivity,” are useful in the laboratory that is called “humanity.” They organize, they synchronize, they enable coordination. However, when these conventions, which are no more than “work tools,” become the center of the perception of reality, then they strengthen an experience of isolation, separateness, and helplessness, the illusion of “I am alone with the clock,” “there is no reality except that which science confirms,” “what I feel does not belong to the general story.”
Cosmic Time dismantles isolation and the feeling of inability to connect to inner knowledge and truth. “I am not disconnected from my parts. I am not dependent on external approval in order to feel worth. I am synchronized. In this moment I am together, with myself, with my sources, with who I shall yet choose to be. My experience is my truth before any other “truth.”
From this, the concept of “loss” receives a new meaning. In linear time, which is to a large extent a “tragic” time, a time of losses, every moment “was and is no more.” In Cosmic Time, “loss” is revealed as the distance between my attention and that part within me that I can meet. When I meet, the mourning is updated. Not because I erase pain, but because I return it to its precise scope and I cease perpetuating the story of separation. Healing is closeness, between versions of myself, between worlds that I thought were disconnected, between “no longer” and “not yet.”
This is not a philosophy for contemplation. This is a choreography of movement for the sake of living. Every time that consciousness succeeds in “dreaming within the dream,” it in fact dismantles the walls of the current dream and the illusion of linear time and its crumbling. By means of writing, painting, movement, breathing, a loving gaze, humor, an opening is created. Through it, air, softness, and repair enter.
There maturity grows to choose a channel, not the channel of suffering by default, but the experiential channel in which I create my relations with time. From here a sober promise grows. It is not necessary to suffer in order to develop. It is possible to develop in order to dissolve excessive suffering. Suffering can be part of the experience of life from time to time, but it does not have to be the only, central, and most significant experience.
The portion of suffering in the life of a person is no more than one “channel” from among an abundance of channels that are available and possible simultaneously, which it is essential to recognize and to move into, in order to reduce the centrality of suffering and in order to recruit around it means of healing, updating, and transformation.
Thus a core sentence is formed. I am present and I move creatively within the field of time. Not “I managed” and not “I did not manage,” not “I shall be late” and not “I shall be early,” but I am in constant movement within the field of my existence. There is no true possibility “to fail to manage,” because the field of Cosmic Time is a space of diverse experiences and not a narrow measuring of achievements according to certain and rigid standards of “what is successful” or “what is good.”
In Cosmic Time there is no possibility “to fail to manage,” and there are no tensions of “missing out.” Every movement within the full field of time is blessed, worthy, and suitable, and it has no other possibility in the present moment.
The greatest challenge is to align, as much as possible, the movement to the hands of desire, which are the more authentic measure of time, and they are also the place in which the experience of linear time disappears and its place is taken by the experience of “now” that continues to move following the further indicators of the hands of desire that invite the next creation, and the one after that, and the one after that.
Chapter 6: The Clock of Experiences
Linear time is a social contract, a fine print document that was signed without being read. Hands, calendars, deadlines, tools for synchronizing the human laboratory. However, the hands themselves are not relevant to experience. Relevance is inside. There time is not “tick tick,” it is a quality that the body emotion imagination measure together.
When the quality expands, time expands. When it contracts, time closes. This is not a metaphor. The experience of time truly slows or accelerates depending on harmony. Delight creates a gentle acceleration in which an “hour” becomes one moment. Pressure creates viscosity in which a “minute” is more sticky than an endless bureaucratic corridor in August. The hand does not move according to a calendar. It moves according to the character of the heart of the experience. This is the true time. This is also the path to connect to Cosmic Time, which, similar to the experiential space, has no beginning and has no end, and is in constant dynamic movement of changes and development.
The right pace is not “fast” or “slow.” The right pace is synchronization or alignment. Therefore, for example, “speed” that is intuitive is not haste, it is an improving tuning to a deeper and freer frequency. When the hand writes before a thought has time to hesitate, the inner voice simply arrives in real time. Intuition does not hurry. It is present time. It does not demand permission from reason, and therefore it is received as a flowing experience in which there is no place for criticism. This acceleration is a path of entry to Cosmic Time, a dimension in which the present is not a fragment between “before” and “after,” it is a plane of action that gathers all of them into itself.
In this dimension the central question changes from “what time is it” to “what is the quality of the experience.” Quality is the clock, the level of openness, the degree of delight, the measure of presence. Cosmic Time is measured by the flow of being, not by intervals of measurement. From here a simple and generative insight opens. The present is always in movement. Not because it “progresses” somewhere, but because its nature is to move. The present moves even when it is quiet. Its rest is in movement. The experiential space never stops. It only changes pace, direction, and attention. Therefore it contains no possible element of “waste” or “missing out,” as noted earlier, but only an invitation and potential to improve the capacity to be within the experience, to listen to it, to trust its messages, and to act for its sake.
Here the precise connection between linear time and Cosmic Time enters, “the clock of experiences.” In the experiential view, linear time is not a sequence of identical units, it is an accumulation of experiences. Every experience leaves a living record, not an “objective” fact, but an emotional and conscious imprint that updates the system. Record joins record, precedent joins precedent, and at a certain stage a new acting identity is born, “this is how I am.”
From here “age” ceases to be a count of years and becomes a count of experiences. There are those who go through in one year what others go through in twenty. The precise question is not “how many years are you,” but “how many experiences are you.” This is the true age of true time.
In the clock of experiences there is choice. A certain event can become fuel for drama or a gate for transformation. That same event can receive a victim interpretation, “why does this always happen to me,” or it can be an invitation to development and change, “what does this invite within me now.” This choice changes the route.
Reality weaves constraints, surprises, and spices, so that it will be interesting, but the manner of our meeting with the event determines the next junction. The story is not a single script. It is a live decision tree. At every moment many continuation versions open, and many of them are not on the radar when the horizon of consciousness is narrow. Expansion of consciousness reveals paths that were not available without it.
Since the field of existence and action is the positive field, it is essential to say again and again. The place in which we are is an experiential place. Experience determines the interpretation of reality, and what is beautiful is that it is possible to influence experience and from there also to influence reality, precisely from the place in which experience becomes a plastic space that can be kneaded, moved, tuned, and changed.
As stated, in Cosmic Time the concept of “failure” loses meaning. Every single moment is a kind of experience that has value. There is learning that has timing, what happens “now” is what exactly can happen “now.” There is mutual development between the different parts of the I and that which is beyond it.
That linear tension, succeed or fail, manage or fail to manage, is a functional fiction of a limited laboratory that does not recognize all the possible parameters of its own research. Outside there, or more precisely above there, every choice is good raw material. If not now, then later. If not later, then in parallel. There is nowhere to flee from development, because development is not a goal but a natural movement of the present. Recognition of such a reality is recognition of Cosmic Time.
Imagination, as an experiential space, is not perceived here as a channel of “escape” from reality. It is its measuring tool. Imagination is the corridor in which the present meets the “in a moment.” There the possibility is born to say about something future, “it has already happened,” and in this to establish, in a creative manner, inner consent for the creation of a new reality. Imagination confirms accessibility to a script of renewal and development. In fact, it builds in the spiritual space the necessary resources, and from there the body adopts the suitable movement.
In this sense, imagination is more real than the “fact.” The more a person is early to identify the truths of the person’s imagination, the more the person’s capacity to connect to a wider and more possible perception of reality grows accordingly.
Or, in another manner, imagination is the true basis for the meeting with the higher facts of existence, not those that are limited by an intellectual approach that is based only on linear rational thinking that is able to grasp only a partial reality. These higher facts are the most important story that a person must know, meet, and realize, and this can be done more and more through connection to the experience of Cosmic Time.
Also what is perceived as “memory” changes and is updated very greatly when one addresses it from a point of view that is more experiential and less as a track that is strained to reconstruct certain elements in a certain event. In Cosmic Time everything is recorded, not necessarily in words, but through experiential emotional inscriptions. The inner library keeps everything according to the same rule, in Cosmic Time nothing can truly “get lost,” but at most change form and return to be revealed when there is reason and interest to focus experiential emotional attention on it.
When consciousness softens, the proper memory arrives at the proper time, in a dosage that the system can bear. The forgetfulness that is familiar in the human structure is not a flaw. It is a defense mechanism of a system that is excessively based on linear reason. In such a system the range of containing experiential inscription is narrow, therefore it broadcasts “forgetfulness” according to its need.
When connecting to parallel systems, based on experience, desire, play, and creation, what is called among other names “right brain,” “hidden” elements from the past are revealed and awakened, thanks to a connection to a space in which there is no limitation of containment and in which there also exist rules of storage and “visiting the library,” without criticism, to come with an approach of love and creation, not to force a certain memory, to open to experiential impressions that will come exactly as they will come and when they will come.
When one replaces the question “how much time has passed” with the question “how many experiences were created,” the meaning of age is also replaced. Not “did I manage,” but “what was integrated.” Not “how many pages I flipped in the diary,” but “what was engraved in the soul.” Thus it becomes clear why there are people who look young despite their biological age. Not because they bypassed the hand, but because they converted wearing down into transformation. Thus it becomes clear why others look tired from age. Not because they grew older, but because experiences accumulated without processing, without updating, without healing, without improving the quality of experience. The body tells the story of experiential time before the clock has time to tick.
The human game still needs a clock. A starting hour is needed, an address is needed, a frame is needed. It is a useful symbol for synchronization, coordination, boundaries, and rules of action. However, when one forgets that a clock is only a tool and not that which describes time in its true form, then the movement of the clock becomes a source for anxiety and distress, and time itself is perceived as something that moves consistently toward “its end.”
Cosmic Time does not cancel the hour, we shall continue for a long time to coordinate our meetings according to day and hour, but it places above it the deep quality of the concept of “time.” The linear clock can serve a person as a tool with which the person connects to the cosmic clock within, the experiential clock, the imaginative clock, the reality creating and reality changing clock at a fast pace. Time, in its true and cosmic meaning, is more a “place to be in” and not a kind of continuous race that there is no chance to win. This illusion, which harms the fabric of the quality of human life, these studies seek to gradually dissolve.
In this view “progress” is an elevation, an improvement of the quality of experience, healing, transformation. Experience upon experience upon experience, like bricks that build the inner temple of growth. Every experience is a brick and it is well placed, even if it once looked like a construction error. When a brick was pushed inward by pain, another brick, of understanding and healing, balances it. This architecture is not accidental. It is the “Healthy Nature Principle” in action, a constant tilt toward harmony that can improve with time, in which self love reduces criticism, and emotional creativity moves the movement.
At the end of the day, time is revealed as a space that can change and develop as a function of surrender to the paths of healthy desire. The more this capacity improves, the more the experience of time changes. As stated, since in the language of Cosmic Time “your experience is your truth,” so it also happens. The quality and even the shape of a person’s time are the result of the degree of surrender to the person’s healthy desire, whose entire purpose of movement is to bring the person to a higher, more harmonious, more creative dimension of time that is closer to the person’s essence.
So if we already choose a “clock,” we shall wish to wear on our wrist or on our neck the “clock of experiences.” Here truth is measured not in numbers but in the character of the experience and in its energetic contribution. Every experience is sacred, by virtue of being the experiential space in which it is possible and even recommended to build a space of time of healing, change, and expansion. From this point of view, the expression “this is your time” is true for every moment, and our task is to meet this fact at the experiential level, which is the level in which the true clock is the clock of Cosmic Time.
Chapter 7: An Experiential Amusement Park
The Psycho Creative perception of “now” says simply, everything is here. Linear time is a necessary work frame for a certain world, but it does not describe true time. However, that same frame of linear time invites stepping beyond it, a game whose purpose is development, to identify the box in order to see what is beyond it. When the desire for growth awakens, the lens widens, and reality is revealed as multi layered.
In the depth of things, “now” is not a thin point between “before” and “after.” It is a living space within which all events are spread out, those that were registered in us as “past” and those that we call “future.” The difference is not existential, it is positional. Where the energetic lens is laid at this moment. We are present in several dimensions and in many versions at one and the same time. The choice where to place attention is what determines what we call “the present.” It is like moving between broadcast channels, the fact that I am watching a certain channel does not cancel the active existence of the others. A small press, and the focus jumps.
The experiential space is the amusement park of consciousness. There is no need for a “time ship” there. The choice to move creatively is the primary vehicle. Imagination in it is not “escape.” It is a central ride. What is imagined exists as an energetic structure that has not yet received sufficient focus to condense into matter. When such a focus is given, physical reality organizes around it. Thus action moves from the feminine energy to the masculine energy, from spirit to matter. It may look like “magic,” because it is indeed charming, but it is in fact frequency engineering, the transfer of energy from one form to another.
Within this frame, writing becomes a bridge. Writing to myself in another version, yesterday or tomorrow, grants that version a living presence. This is a small creation. The moment I have established a channel of connection, the other side exists in relation to me. Not as a dry memory and not as a random fantasy, but as an experiential entity with a base of information and experience. A consistent meeting with the version of the future creates a magnet of realization. A meeting with the version of the past melts the tragic illusion of continuous loss. Nothing “was lost.” There is a shifting of focus and attention.
Linear time, when it is too dominant and exclusive, produces a plot of lack, a “budget” of coins that is emptied, a “race” to manage before it will end. This is a useful fiction for running a calendar, but it is a source of depletion when one forgets its boundaries.
In true time, which is Cosmic Time, the past and the future are present as a team. My older and future versions act together as a group. The higher ones nourish with meaning, and the younger ones nourish with curiosity and vitality. This is a kind of experiential architecture. Memories are emotional records that are flexible, plasticine that may be kneaded. Updating the experience of yesterday changes the intensity of “now.” Updating the image of tomorrow refreshes the route of the present.
The library of existence is built as living books. Every life, a book. Every book, bound with the books that preceded it. All the books are stored on a wider shelf called the Akashic Library. When I “leaf through,” I am not escaping from my current reality. I am synchronizing with my wider and truer reality.
With every rewatching of a film in the cinema or on television, details that were missed on the first viewing are revealed. So too repeated leafing through my life, through what is perceived as “past,” in fact refreshes the way I perceive and understand the movement of my life at this very moment. The “film” experience of my existence is updated with every “repeated viewing.” This is, again, the “past” merging with the present, influencing it, being present in it, and moving it.
The junction of the present is the highest position of influence. Here the “editing of the film” is done. Self love relaxes pressure, the reduction of criticism removes unnecessary background noise and distractions, emotional creativity activates a movement of transformation and renewal.
Addictions, everything that dulls vitality, compete with Cosmic Time and ground too much into linear time, because they deflect the focus from the living present to their narrow drama. The return to the junction of the present is a practice of improvement and healing, to reconnect to the route of growth, healing, development, and expansion. All these occur naturally in Cosmic Time and sometimes look “complicated” when consciousness is too convinced of the truth of linear time.
Within all this, “progress” is revealed as movement between versions, not as a chase after a goal. “Now” is always moving. Its rest is in movement. We pass from now to now. The clock only disassembles the continuity into useful segments. No “now” goes missing, only the focus is replaced. When I increase the skill of moving between versions, subtle, soft, without drama, a quiet knowing is established in me. There is nothing “to manage to do.” There is something to live, to move, to update, to expand, to know more.
Thus the simple and piercing lesson of this chapter is sealed. “Now” is an active multi version system that is available for connection. Imagination marks the door, writing opens it, feeling passes through it, and life organizes accordingly, naturally.
Instead of “waiting for time,” I “move in time.” Time is a field to move in and never something that can be exhausted. Time is a basic definition of existence from which things are born. It is part of the source, and the source can never be exhausted.
So, instead of clinging too much to the current chapter, I write the next title and allow it to pull me forward. Here, now, with all the versions, and with one heart that agrees to be a home.
Chapter 8: It Is Possible to Stop the Illusion of “I Did Not Manage to Do Enough”…
From an external view of the planet, it seems that an entire humanity is researching one “reality” inside which it is confined, like a laboratory box with rigid laws. However, beyond the box there exists a wider reality, and we call it here “Cosmic Time.”
Cosmic Time, above every definition, is experiential time. Throughout the lessons I returned and focused on the word “experience,” because this is our channel of communication, research, and development. Through experience one can climb to a higher or truer reality, and at that very experiential point one can also lose the connection to one’s higher part. In the same place it is possible to become stuck and it is also possible to be released. This is the process of transformation.
The task of human culture in these years and onward is a multi faced task of transformation. From familial and professional to spirit and society, it is always a passage from an experience of a narrow reality to a wider reality, closer to the source, in the zone of experience.
Within the zone of experience we adopted limitations so that we could play the human game, and these limitations have benefit. One who has experienced intuitive painting knows. Precisely boundaries enable freedom. Without them there is no space of creation.
So too here. In order to gain the privilege of the human experience, which is a rare workshop beyond the narrow human story, we descended into a limiting frame. It is a privilege that also contains difficulty, and therefore one who chose to come here is an adventurous soul that agreed to experience the challenge. There are souls whose role here is to assist from the side, and there are those who did not descend at all.
Yet within this compelling experience the time has come to be released from one of the central limitations, the experience of the absoluteness of linear time, whose excessive leaning upon it leaves the person and humanity closed in a small bubble that is not able to see the larger story to which it itself belongs.
Linear time is a constricted and conditional time, a time in which an anxious component is embedded. Even a glance at the clock is a trigger for anxiety, and we do not notice this because we are conditioned. The simple recommendation is to reduce the portion of the clock in the perception and experience of time. There are ways to know hours, but there is no need to activate the anxiety mechanism at every glance.
Linear time produces distance from the source, a series of distorted concepts of lack, “I wasted time,” “I did not manage to do enough,” “I made a mistake,” “how was I not,” which simply do not exist on a higher level. Time, in its origin, is not “wasteable.” It is impossible to waste infinity. Think of time as a perpetual space. It is in every place, even in the bin into which we tried to throw it.
We are all the time within time, all the time in “now,” and therefore there are no categories there, in true time, of “waste” or “mistake.” In a Cosmic view, every experience is sacred and of equal value. Whether we did “a lot” or “nothing,” positive or negative, everything belongs to the growth program. There is no true option “to do it wrong.” There is a local challenge of transformation, from burden to freedom, from pain to healing, yet even if we have not done this yet, the process is not violated. It exists and takes place, and we are all the time part of it, in every form in which we choose, consciously and unconsciously, to be and to exist.
From here arises the practical nullification of “failure.” Just as it is impossible “to waste time,” it is impossible to truly fail. Apparently this is boring. What shall we regret. What shall we complain about. Yet the dependence on this drama is nothing more than a human addiction that hides from us immense delight and a wealth of creative challenges.
When the linear illusions fall, it is revealed that we in fact have more tasks. We left the template, the rituals, and the limitations, and a space opened in which the voice of the soul moves us to creation. There there is even “no time to feel that there is no time,” because everything takes place in “now,” in the intensity of desire and vitality.
This is the heart of Psycho Creative development, to supply stimuli that train us to dismantle anxieties and limitations, to allow more entrances into Cosmic Time, and to move through a gradual withdrawal from linear addictions, chronic worry, constriction, comparisons, competitiveness, “failures,” a sense of low value and non realization, all of which lose relevance.
The concept of “self realization” also changes form. We are accustomed to imagine purpose and “mission” as a future mountain peak, but realization takes place now. Difficulty being in “now” causes us to project realization onto “later.” In practice, in this moment we are at the optimal expression of ourselves, and from here it is possible only to refine in the next “now.”
This is a happy message. You are already in realization. One who wishes may peel limitations and expand expression. One who does not, that is also fine. In any case this is success, for I am maintaining the soul contract. It is impossible to violate it. There is no escape from myself and from my path that is always under higher guidance.
Within the soul contract there are many options, conscious and not conscious. Many of them are transformative or influence others. Transformation, in its simplicity, is only a drawing closer to “now.” Within “now,” the connection to the creative drive grows stronger, to the whispers of the soul regarding expression, creation, and action. The more we do transformation, it is as if we turn the volume of listening. Capacity to listen and to fulfill. This is the whole story, a passage from stance to stance of remembrance, who I am and what I chose to do here. In this way one moves to a lively zone, low in worry, less linear, more refined in “now.”
This receives practical expression in writing. In the group of writing your next book we learn to enter “now” in the middle of the doing, and “now” itself moves the text. We pass through the blocks to a clearer “now,” and then we work from within it.
For this to happen we bring in emotional transformation. The emotional component is the center of Psycho Creative doing. Free emotional creation takes place only in “now.” When one surrenders to a flow without criticism, creative freedom grows, doors open, stories are revealed, and there is no small delight there. Everything is directed to the focus on that single experiential “now.” There is no other time in truth. Even moving away from “now,” to a space of worries, pressures, and the need “to manage to do,” takes place within “now,” only with a higher intensity of forgetting its qualities. Here the three anchors of the Psycho Creative Triangle enter as helpers to reside in “now,” self love, a simple smile in the mirror that reminds a person that the person is here, at this moment, feeling and needing attention, reduction of criticism, the turning off of the screen that stands between the infinite spirit and grounded awareness, and emotional creation, which is an event that launches a person to the person’s free and creative “now.”
Another aspect of “now” is the capacity for spontaneous standing, while relying less on constriction and preparations. There is trust in Cosmic Time that occurs when we agree to arrive without a plan and to be there, and then to discover the quiet plan that suddenly emerges during creative movement.
This is true for a walk, for a conversation, or for teaching. The higher plan will be expressed when we agree to arrive also without a consolidated plan and to express while listening inwardly to the creative movements that ask to move outward the moment it is right for them to come out. During the process, if one allows this and is ready for this, the information will arrive, right brain and left brain will work together, and in the time of “now” intuitive decisions will be received that could not have been planned in advance at all. In such moments, of connecting all the times to “now,” it is also possible to experience delight and a sense of expansion, because of the dismantling of walls and the flow of free energy between the parts in the soul and beyond it.
However, it is worthy to remember the human space to which we chose to descend, a space that does not encourage spontaneity, that doubts that the answer will arrive in its time, or that produces a sense that self realization is always larger than life itself, and therefore usually also unattainable and elusive. Precisely in this limiting space there is a great, sweet, and adventurous challenge, to bring about transformation and a gradual passage to the perception of Cosmic Time, and an increase of connection to insights and changes that arise from the recognition that everything happened, everything happens, and everything will happen, right “now.” This also means that it is not possible “to lose,” it is not possible “to miss,” and there is no option “not to realize yourself,” because self realization also happens, or one may say “happened,” right “now.”
Linear logical thinking struggles with an experiential language that is not dependent on consensus. Therefore physical mathematical research alone is never sufficient. The movement of time has means that are not physical but spiritual, and this is exactly what happens in Cosmic Time. For this purpose I created a series of video recordings for healing in Cosmic Time.
It is possible, under mediated and safe experiential conditions, to return to traumatic events and to begin to soften them. The more one practices, one discovers that it is possible to bring up an “I” from a time past into the present and to allow it to speak here and now. We were taught to think that “what was, has passed and is no more,” but this is simply not accurate. Life cycles are present and influence one another now. The story is more lateral than linear. Within this experience it is also possible to move to the future, to speak with the future self version, to resonate potential and to increase its likelihood. Every one of us has a lineup of potentials for today and for an additional day. It is possible to choose a potential, to converse with it, to hear how things look from its angle, and then with another, and another, and to feel in practice the game of choice.
Finally, the main understanding here is not conceptual but experiential, playful, creative. Therefore we meet regularly in order to focus attention and to show where all the paths lead in the Psycho Creative path, to the story of the experience of “now.”
Within the conversation natural questions arise. “How much time did I waste.” “I am already at a linear age. How shall I grow a young desire.” The answer arises from the wider view. There is no lack, there is yes. Today you are not that version of then. The version has been updated, and you have undergone processes that qualified you to see more. The feeling of “missing the age” is an illusion that arises from a lack of self love. In a higher view, every single moment that you have done is sacred and exciting, and your achievements are present.
Linear time is a “time of no.” It crumbles. Cosmic Time is a “time of yes.” There is always. Even in difficult moments, when it seems that the balance is entirely losses, the very knowledge that there is experiential Cosmic value to what I am going through already reduces drama and leaves room for transformation, even if the way is not yet clear.
It is possible to turn a slippery “something” that is felt behind the words into a “someone” with form, to paint it, to converse with it.
Imagination is not an “empty invention,” it is a living place. It is also possible to discover, in practice, that the “jump in time” through the experiential imaginative inventive route becomes available, that the tension subsides, and that the experience of the possible widens. This is a matter of focus and resources. Not in every moment are we available to practice movement between the times, and this depends on the level of emotional tension in which we are present.
Also in addictions the temporal dimension is evident. Most addictions are nourished by fear of what will happen. The future, in a linear perception, is drawn with anxiety and lack of control. Addiction creates a fog around the anxiety of the future while inducing far too much attention to the patterns of addiction, in fact by creating a linear kind of “now” that revolves obsessively through the rituals and dramas of the addiction.
Cosmic Time reminds us that the future is nothing but a collection of scripts, and the track on which the train of our life shall continue is built from the choices of “now.” The need for control is not once a means for the loss of control, in fact. The more one advances in Psycho Creative withdrawal from addictions, there is more optimism, a sense of capacity, and creativity in the face of the challenges of addiction. It is not that the “bad mood” disappears, but that the balance changes with the experience of the capacity to influence.
Therefore it is possible to summarize, in Cosmic Time we strengthen the experience of choice. Even when we do not pay attention we are choosing our future. It is possible to train this muscle through withdrawal from linear dramas, through emotional creativity, and through openness to spontaneity. In this way the range of capacities expands, the connection to intuition is sharpened, and we move in more precise routes of growth. In intuitive painting, as in life, it is possible to choose red, green, blue, yellow. The more the feeling “I am allowed” expands, the closer we come to the intuition that guides us.
The future, in the end, is nothing but the cumulative expression of choices in “now,” and another now, and another now. This is the reason to choose to be Psycho Creative. It is the space in which we improve the capacity of choice so that it will operate from connection to healthy desire, and through this we surrender to a more vital and present “now,” with all the options of development, healing, and change that it constantly offers us.
Chapter 9: Games of Time
The concept that is called “time,” and primarily linear time, is a contract that quietly we agreed upon in order to allow the physical world to exist in synchronization. It has open clauses such as dates, hours, and a reference to the time axis as one that moves forward consistently and in a linear manner.
Precisely in that place in which we are present, when attention is moved within the experiential space, it is discovered that time is an event that changes and shapes itself according to the quality of the experience of the moment. In fact, it is the one that determines its pace. Expressions such as “time did not move” or “I did not notice that an hour had already passed,” “time passes quickly when one enjoys, it truly passes quickly then.” Thus an emotional and conscious choice in relation to what is happening in time changes in practice the subsequent route of time at the experiential level. Therefore the same time that is measured by a “clock” is nothing more than a logistical means intended for certain purposes of practice and development, but the true story of time takes place inside, in the place in which experience, meaning, and presence define what “now” truly is.
When one looks at time from inside one sees a simple thing. Its pace is not determined by the “movement of the hands,” it is determined by the degree of harmony. In moments of inner alignment, work in flow, living creation, time merges with the present, everything takes place “now,” and there is an experience of “I did not feel the time.” A whole hour is experienced as a full and rich moment, because the relationship between attention, body, and emotion is synchronized. In contrast, in the presence of pressure, friction, and bureaucracy, every minute unravels into small units and lengthens, smears out, and is apparently very “delayed.” The saying “time crawled” is not only a metaphor. It is experiential physics. The quality of experience is the inner metronome. Therefore pleasant experiences do not “pass quickly” in truth. They take place at the right pace, a pace in which “now” becomes a central presence until the usual clock measures lose their supposed role of “showing the time.”
From here the distinguishing difference between “fast” and “synchronized” is derived. Linear culture sometimes points to speed as a kind of “haste,” or also “not sufficient room for consideration and learning of reality,” but in the experiential space “speed” is not a move to a non aligned pace. It is precisely synchronization with the pace of intuition.
When the hand writes before criticism has time to stop, there is no “haste” here. There is a merging with a vital, creative, and very present now. Intuition does not “run.” It becomes available and more accessible when one operates at the pace that suits it, which from the perspective of linear time is “too fast.”
Accordingly, actions that are perceived as “quick,” continuous intuitive writing, spontaneous painting full of desire and movement without restraints or delays, fast decisions that come from the heart, all these are in fact alignment to the frequency in which deep consciousness operates without background noise. This is the connection to Cosmic Time that also grants those who come to it a considerable measure of delight.
“Delight” too is a central subject in the passage to more experience in Cosmic Time. Delight is not a luxury or an exceptional privilege. Delight is in fact an excellent testimony that the pace is aligned, that we are in synchronization with our inner world, that we moved to a place in which separations are dissolving, that we arrived, even for a few moments, to the space of Cosmic Time. In linear time, in contrast, because of excessive attention to survival and to the measuring of time from a stance of lack and anxiety, there is not much room for delight. In Cosmic Time, delight is the vital sign of the present. If you are in delight, it is a sign that you are here.
In order to understand what “Cosmic Time” is, we must exchange the measuring tool of time. Instead of leaning on a calendar, we move to a library of experiences. The linear language breaks life into seconds, minutes, and years, but the soul records events of experience.
To the question “how old are you,” which usually refers to the person’s linear years of life, it will be worthwhile to relate, from the perspective of Cosmic Time, with the question, “how many experiences old are you,” and beyond that, “how many experiences of delight, healing, and growth old are you.” This should be the tool of “measurement,” if there is an interest to measure time at all. A question that a person ought to ask the person’s self is more a question of the quality of the person’s experiences and not the quantity of official and “dry” linear time that the person spends here on planet Earth.
Every experience lays a layer, a sensory moment, a fluctuation of feeling, a small insight, a meeting that changes shade. These layers, experiential precedents, accumulate until they become an inner organization, “this is I.” Therefore, as stated, the interesting question of age is not “how old are you,” it is “how many experiences old are you.” There are those who in one year accumulate what another will go through in twenty, not because the person skipped the clock hands, but because there was in the person the capacity and maturity to open certain doors, doors in Cosmic Time, doors of development, change, and growth.
“Experiential age” is the true age of a person, and the inner library is the place of recording of that “experiential time.” Nothing is lost. It is possible to imagine that there is inside a “good librarian” who loves us and keeps everything, brings out volumes when the system is able to carry them, and protects against flooding when there is not yet readiness. Therefore memory is not a function of intellectual effort, it is a function of experiential readiness. When presence expands, the shelves of the inner library open.
The accumulation of experiences also changes the definition of movement. In ordinary language we say “forward” and “backward,” yet in the experiential corridor the movement is more “upward.” Experience upon experience, a kind of vertical building. Even when supposedly “more of the same” takes place, if one touches it differently, the layer is in fact a new experiential layer, and therefore it is no longer the same. In fact, nothing can truly repeat itself. This is a wonderful example of a confusing illusion that occurs in linear time.
Life are conducted, to a large extent, as a network of junctions. In every moment there are options for many more branches than those that we see. Fear and the constriction of linear time reduce the visible menu to two or three options, but the true space, in Cosmic Time, is much richer. This is also a significant psychological message. When the number of options is limited, the drama and the anxiety regarding decisions, choices, and actions become heavier and more present, and in doing so reduce even more the capacity to identify that the number of options in every moment is to a large extent infinite. This is one example among many why the process of passage to Cosmic Time is in fact a healing process.
A certain event can continue to exist as a victim experience that seems to repeat itself and frustrates, yet it can at the same time exist also as one in which a wise emotional experiential transformation is bound up. Thus choice and the emotional relation to the event become a central component in the measuring of time at the true level. The question is not only “what happened.” It is also “how did I meet the event.” Time, in this sense, is not neutral. It responds to the manner of the meeting. Have you thought about the fact that time is a kind of “responsive energy.”
Within the “now” of Cosmic Time, as stated, there are always more and more options for interpretation, for coping, for shaping the experience, for transformation, for creation, and for change. When the passage becomes a subject for practice and experience, so too an ever increasing number of victim experiences soften and receive a possible route for disintegration and for replacement with experiences of healing and change that were always there as an option but were not seen because of the fog of linear time.
Thus Cosmic Time becomes a space that resembles more a playground than a battlefield of survival, addiction, and unending attempt to adapt to frustrating and challenging conditions. A person’s capacity to “play” with the person’s reality largely determines the person’s quality of life and the person’s capacity to cope successfully with what stands before the person. The capacity to play depends on the existence of an experience of multiple options, curiosity, and change. This experience can be created and realized with increasing frequency the more one practices, through Psycho Creative tools, through passage to Cosmic Time, through residing in it, and through experiencing the abundance of options that it offers.